nothing.” No, that wasn’t it, but I wasn’t going to tell her the real reason why I sought pain. Not always. But sometimes… When the world seemed to close in on me, when the village, the pack, and the day to day routine suffocated me… I sought an escape. Since I couldn’t escape in the true sense of the word, my escape was pain. Sheer, unpredictable pain. Pain never disappointed.
Carefully shielding my erection from her, I stood up to leave. I didn’t understand what was happening, what we were doing here, so it was better for me to go and forget all about it. Forget our little chat, and forget the feel of her fingers on my back.
“No, wait.”
“What now?”
“I’m sorry, I have to ask… You’ll probably say ‘no’, but…”
“Ask already!”
“Can you give me some clothes?” She motioned at the towel. It did very little to cover her, and it was probably useless at night, when the caves were a playground for freezing draughts. “Real clothes, if you have something in my size. Or any size. I don’t care.”
I nodded. “I’ll go see what I can find.”
“One more thing.” She bit her lower lip nervously, and I could tell this one was going to be a big ask. “Could you take me somewhere I can use a bathroom like a normal human being? Please. Just this once. I…” She sighed. “The bucket is horrible. It’s dehumanizing.”
“Well, you certainly dehumanized my brother when…” I growled, but she cut me off.
“Please.” That cute, trembling chin again. “I know, I know. And you’re right. I just… It would mean so much to me if you allowed me to wash myself a bit and use a toilet.”
I shook my head. “We don’t have what you understand by ‘toilet’ up in the mountains. I hope you realize that. It’s a hole in the ground.”
“Of course. I don’t care, I’ll take it. I won’t try anything, I promise. I don’t want trouble. I just want to stretch my legs a bit, and maybe take some sun. It’s so dark and dusty in here. I don’t even know what time of day it is. It’s confusing and… and… it’s so hard to fall asleep at night.”
“Alright, alright. I’ll take you. Whatever.”
I motioned for her to stand up, and when she did, I grabbed her by the arm and pulled her out of the cell. She was slow. As she walked one step behind me, she clutched the towel to her chest. She was barefoot, and when we exited the caves, I had to carry her, so she wouldn’t hurt her feet. My cabin wasn’t far. I tried to avoid walking into anyone, as I didn’t want any discussions to arise. One of the females did see us, but she merely furrowed her brows and returned to what she was doing. Isabel was looking around with wide, curious eyes. She took in every house, every shed, every tree. We didn’t have fences in our community, and neither did we have backyards. The forest was our backyard. As I held her in my arms, she had one hand around my neck, while the other was still clutching the towel for dear life. She weighed nothing. To me, she was as light as a feather. I briefly wondered whether it might be a good idea to feed her again while she was in my house. We arrived, and I set her down before opening the door. No, I wasn’t going to carry her over the threshold. How pathetic. I knew humans had this tradition where the groom had to carry his bride over the threshold the day they got married. We didn’t do stuff like that up in the mountains.
“This is me,” I grunted as I opened the door and let her in.
“Thank you.” She shot a glance around. “It’s lovely! So cozy!”
I rolled my eyes. She was lying, for sure. My cabin had only one room, a stove in a corner, a fireplace on the wall next to it, a bed that was only big enough for one person – me – a table, a couch, and some chairs. When I had a female over, we didn’t even fuck in my bed. We would’ve broken it. We fucked in front of the fireplace, on an ancient pelt that I didn’t even know who’d brought into my house. The place wasn’t necessarily small. It was the right size for my needs. That morning, I’d left it messy as hell. If