years when a footfall startled her and she looked up to find Will Nye frowning down at her.
“What are you doing with those?” he growled accusingly, snatching the pages out of her hand.
Mina bridled, both affronted by his rudeness and uncomfortably aware that she had been caught out reading scandal rags. “I was about to clean the windows with them,” she answered, flushing hotly.
This seemed to take the wind out of his sails. “Oh,” he said, swallowing back whatever he had been about to say next. “With newspaper?” He gave her a hard stare and Mina wished she weren’t so smudgy with dirt. “Won’t the print smear the glass?”
“You’d think so, wouldn’t you,” she admitted, touching her headscarf to make sure it was still firmly in place. “But no, it actually has the opposite effect.” What was he staring at? She glanced down to check she wasn’t disarrayed in some way, but everything seemed to be in place, if a little worse for wear.
He breathed out heavily. “These are set aside,” he said shortly. “For clippings.”
“Oh, I didn’t realize—”
“Why should you?” he interrupted her rudely.
Mina’s eyes stung. To distract herself, she reached for the pages she had detached. “I’ll just parcel these back up,” she said stiffly, but again, he rejected her help.
“Don’t touch them” he said, reaching past her and scooping them up. Mina drew back her hand as if he had slapped it. She stood mutely by as he gathered all the newspapers up into a bundle and walked them to the door. He halted in the doorway and turned back. “It’s not me putting you to skivvy,” he said ungraciously. “I neither asked for a wife nor needed one.”
Mina felt her color drain away. She stood entirely still as he exited the room and continued to stand there for a good few minutes after. Reaching for her apron strings, she untied them with trembling fingers, cast the apron down on a chair and then reached for the headscarf which she also tore off her head. Then she was out of the parlor bar, striding down the passageway and out in the yard. She was halfway across it before she broke into a run. When she reached the road, she did not turn right, down toward the village, but instead swung to the left, her legs flying despite her long skirts and the uphill climb.
Her arms worked, her legs pumped, and she flew just like the carrion crow, Jeremy Vance had said she resembled. She felt good, she felt free. Her blood which had felt so sluggish since Papa died, coursed through her body in a wild, fizzing rush. The brisk air whipped against her cheeks, but she did not feel cold despite the fact she lacked both cloak and hat. Her hair streamed out behind her as she burst through a hole in the hedge and made for sound of the sea like an arrow from a bow.
She could see it, she realized. The ocean. She had never seen it before, except in books. She felt a sort of frenzied joy fill her at the sight and her face was suddenly wet. It was tears, she realized with surprise. Then she heard shouting behind her. They would not stop her, she vowed. She was going to feel the sea spray on her face, the sensation of sand between her toes. Suddenly she was desperate to stand on that beach. If she could only get on that beach, everything would be alright. Nothing else would matter.
Coming upon the edge of the cliff was a shock. For one horribly thrilling moment, she thought her momentum would carry her right over the edge. Instead, she swerved and came up short, a shower of small stones falling instead on to the rocks below. Again, she heard voices carried on the wind behind her but refused to look back. Almost she felt as though she were pursued by furies or her own overwhelming misery which she had managed for an instant to outrun. But she would not let it catch her. They would not prevent her from her aim.
Instead she crouched a moment, panting to catch her breath and steady her wildly beating heart before lurching unsteadily to her feet in search of a path down the cliffs toward the beach. The fates for once were with her, as almost straight away she hit on a rough-hewn path. Slipping and stumbling, she made the steep descent, her heels dislodging clods of earth,