The Betrothed (The Betrothed #1) - Kiera Cass Page 0,89

but be on the watch for that.”

“I will.”

“And Scarlet . . . she’s not herself at all. I don’t know if you were told, but she was in the room. She saw everything and was thrown outside. We’re not sure why.”

His mask slipped a little, and he looked genuinely pained for her sake. “Has she told you about it?”

“No. She’s hardly said anything. I hope she comes back to us, because I love her so much. But you might have to brace yourself for her to stay this way. I haven’t known what to do for her, and I don’t think Lady Eastoffe does, either. I think the best we can hope for is that time will erase her pain.”

He nodded. “And how—” He stopped quickly and cleared his throat. “How are you?”

I was sure I failed at hiding my shock that he would care. Or, if not care, ask.

“The only person I felt comfortable sharing my true heart with is gone. All of my family and most of his have left with him. . . . It’s too much to feel at once, so I’m taking it in pieces. And I think that’s all I could tell you about it.”

I didn’t trust Etan with the fact that I covered my face with my pillow at night so no one could hear me cry. I couldn’t tell him how much guilt I carried for living when so many didn’t. Though I didn’t consider Isoltens my enemies anymore—well, maybe just their king—I also didn’t consider Etan anything close to a friend.

“I am sorry,” he said.

And I wished so badly that I could have believed him.

“They’re in here,” I answered, showing him into the parlor where Lady Eastoffe and Scarlet waited.

Lady Eastoffe’s face perked up, and she stood to greet her nephew. “Oh, Etan, you darling boy. Thank you so much for coming. I’ll feel much better on the road now.”

Scarlet looked up at him, but then let her eyes fall away.

Etan turned to meet my gaze, and I gave him a shrug that said, “See what I mean?”

“I am always prepared to serve you, Aunt Whitley. We can leave as soon as you’re ready,” he offered.

“Let’s spare no time,” she replied. “The sooner we’re back in Isolte, the better.”

And my crushed heart found new ways to break.

Etan helped Scarlet down the front steps. Her silence seemed to frighten Etan, who kept looking back to me for assurance. I didn’t know what else to say; she was who she was for now.

The three of us were a study in how grief changed people. Lady Eastoffe moved on with impressive perseverance, Scarlet folded in on herself, and I . . . well, I was taking each day as it came, afraid to make any plans that took me any farther down the road than that.

I waited outside the door of the carriage, and she gave me one last embrace.

“Goodbye, Hollis,” she eked out. “I’ll miss you.”

“I’ll miss you, too. When you’re feeling up to it, write me.”

“Should I send letters here or to the castle?”

I shook my head. “I have no idea.”

She sighed. “Let me know when you do.”

Etan offered her a hand, and she took it as she climbed up into the coach that would take her away from me.

“You don’t look convinced,” Etan noted quietly.

“I’m not. I wish they would stay.”

“It’s better for them to be with their family.”

“I am their family; I’m an Eastoffe.”

He smiled. “It would take a little more than that.”

I wanted to contradict him, but Lady Eastoffe came down the front steps, the pair of gloves on her hands passed down from my mother’s belongings. I was not going to ruin our last moments with an argument. Etan walked away, mounting his horse, presumably preferring to be on the lookout instead of cooped up in the coach.

“I checked our rooms,” she assured me, “but there wasn’t much we brought in the first place. We should have everything.”

I couldn’t help but smile at her thoroughness. “There is one thing,” I said, turning to face her. I may have disagreed with everything he was as a person, but Etan had been right about how Jameson viewed me. Maybe he was right about this, too.

I started to slip her ring off my finger.

“Oh, Hollis, no! No, I insist.”

“It belongs in your family. Scarlet should have it,” I urged.

“No, thank you,” she muttered from the coach.

Lady Eastoffe dropped her voice. “I don’t think she wants to have anything to do with