displayed not so much as a hint of awareness that she’d entered.
Four neat piles of ledgers had been stacked high, forming a formidable barrier of those books. Malcom’s head was bent over an opened one as his gaze scoured the pages, the speed with which he ran his eyes over the pages near superhuman in ability.
This side of him, with his guard down, was so unfamiliar. His unfashionably long hair had been drawn back in its familiar queue, and yet a lone strand fell over his brow. Periodically, he swatted at the piece, but remained riveted by whatever information was contained within that ledger. He’d the look of a child with a coveted book in hand, breathless with anticipation of what he’d find on the next pages.
Soft.
It was a word that could never be used to describe or define Malcom North. Or that is what she would have believed . . . before now. Those harsh features, typically set in an unforgiving mask, were devoid of their usual tension. When he worked, he creased his brow; four little lines furrowed there, in a way that made him . . . approachable and real.
And she found herself preferring this side of him. This real, unguarded version of Malcom North.
He stiffened, and it was the moment she knew he’d felt her presence there.
Malcom looked up, and then hurriedly slammed his book closed. “Verity,” he greeted crisply.
Entering, she drew the door closed behind her, and joined him at the desk. She set her satchel down. “Malcom,” she returned, loosening the strings of her bonnet. Suddenly not so very much in a rush to leave this place and seek out their first jaunt as a happily married couple.
“You didn’t knock.”
“Devoted husbands and wives don’t have barriers between them.”
“And you know so much about devoted husbands and wives?” he jeered.
He hated her. Her chest squeezed tight at the palpable loathing that rolled off him. Though in fairness, he hadn’t even really liked her. It didn’t matter what Bram wanted or thought was there. This was real. They’d merely been a pair united by danger in the streets that he’d provided Verity a safe haven from. And you betrayed that by exposing his private life . . .
“I don’t,” she acknowledged, removing her bonnet by its broad brim. She set the woven article down upon her lap. “Not firsthand, that is,” she corrected. “I’ve written of . . . happy”—and unhappy—“spouses.”
“Your gossip column.” Derision continued to drip from his words.
Ignoring that bait, Verity caught the underside of her chair and dragged it closer to his desk. She studied the stacks of leather books lined up. What was he doing? Much like the ledgers that had filled his East London residence, here, too, there were neat stacks. Without thinking, Verity reached for one of them.
“What are you doing?”
Her hand hovered over the stack. “I’m sorry. I was . . .” Her lips pulled, and she shook her head.
Malcom rested his elbows on the edge of his desk and leaned forward. “Let us be clear, madam, as long as you are here—”
“Until the end of next Season.”
“Until the end of next Season.” He clipped out that echo. “You are not to avail yourself of anything unless I allow it. And you’re certainly not to go through my belongings. While we are living together, as long as we are alone, we aren’t going to put up some damned charade of a devoted, loving couple. We act the part when there are people about, but that is it.”
Aye, he hated her, all right. With her newspaper article she had, without any input from the gentleman himself, opened Malcom in ways he hadn’t wished to be before the world. As such, he was entitled to that rage, and she was deserving of that sentiment. Even knowing all that, she still had this urge to cry. Verity drew in a slow breath. “I know you don’t like me.”
He snorted.
“Hate me, even,” she allowed, her heart pulling. How ironic that she’d made the decision she had as a matter of survival, and in the end, she’d earned his antipathy and hadn’t even retained a job for that betrayal. “But servants are the eyes of a household, and if we’re going to live together, with you hating me, no one will ever dare believe that charade. If the world is to believe our marriage was a love match, we have to play the part.”
Malcom steepled long fingers, resting the bridge they formed upon his