Because I Want To - Grace R. Duncan Page 0,7

marks all up and down his arms in an attempt to assuage the need to bite and to avoid doing it to Adam’s neck. He could have—and probably should have—stayed away for that time, but he really couldn’t bring himself to leave Adam alone for his heats. Matt figured the fight in himself was easily worth it to make things a little less miserable for Adam.

Because of that, Matt understood a bit of the horniness an unmedicated omega dealt with during heat, though what he’d gone through had been a drop in the bucket in comparison. So, despite his one difficult experience, he could only imagine how bad it was for Adam. As such, he was extremely careful about his own suppressant and was there for Adam when his medications lapsed.

Matt buried his nose in Adam’s pale blond hair and took a surreptitious inhale. He couldn’t let himself do too much or he’d end up with a very unfortunate boner. Even with the Sepel, Adam still let off more pheromones than usual at that time of the month. And even though Matt took his own medication, he would react a bit more than he would outside of Adam’s heat. But usually, Matt could control himself well enough. At that moment he’d have no reason for a hard-on unless he did something like this.

Still, he couldn’t resist taking in Adam’s scent. It filled him, and he focused on the ache in his chest instead of the arousal. He wanted that scent for his own, wanted Adam to be his. Each month it seemed to be getting more difficult to hide his feelings and go home after Adam’s heat was over. It was the want of the bond, the life, and the family he craved with Adam that he struggled to hide. Though they were still fairly young, it wasn’t too unusual for an omega to bond or even get married at their age—just out of high school, barely eighteen. Most omegas were happy to, especially the pairing part, in an attempt to limit the chance of rape and unwilling bites.

Matt closed his eyes and did his best to calm down. Despite Adam’s slow breathing, Matt didn’t think he was completely asleep yet. He didn’t need to hear Matt’s heartbeat or feel the increased breathing as Matt struggled with the wants he couldn’t have.

Like the want to roll Adam onto his stomach, pull on his hips, and fill him in one thrust. His omega body would welcome it, especially during heat, and Matt would get lost in the man he loved. While buried in Adam’s body, he wanted to bend forward, move the blond hair aside, and bite down on the nape of Adam’s neck. He wanted to let go, fill Adam with his cum—and fill Adam’s womb with their child.

With slow, shallow, deliberate breaths, Matt managed to calm his heart. He focused on what he had, what he could have—the man in his arms, even for this short time—and let himself drift off to sleep.

Chapter 4

Oh shit. Adam let out a soft exhale when he realized his heat was coming back too soon. He tried not to disturb the sleeping man at his back and the soft breath a moment ago turned into a hard one of annoyance. Matt was still spooning him, his muscular chest tight against Adam’s back, and Matt’s hard cock resting in the exact perfect spot. Or not so perfect—Adam couldn’t be sure. Because if he shifted just a little, that cock would fill him, easing the burning inside him. Except it was lacking a condom and his body wanted it—just like that, quite bare—a little too desperately, to his annoyance. It seemed the Sepel was fading faster than it typically did.

He occasionally had bad heats where the meds quit working sooner than normal and his horniness was kicked up about a thousand notches. That had been happening more often than not lately and it seemed like this was going to be one of those times. He didn’t have long before the need would take over and he’d basically lose his mind. So he took a brief moment to be frustrated by his meds wearing off too soon and by the subsequent loss of control. There should have been another eight hours, at least, before he went nuts, and would need to—and could—take his next dose of suppressant.

“Coming back?”

Matt’s deep voice went through Adam, and it took all Adam had to keep from rolling over, straddling his