and also singles who like to have sex while people watch.
ANONYMOUS: Do you know these people you hook up with?
ALEC107: Not all the time. Boston is a large city with lots of play clubs, so while I usually go for anonymity, I do occasionally find myself with a repeat.
I sit back against the headboard of my bed and stare at his message—stunned. I never thought of myself as a lily-white traditionalist, but now I question how sheltered I am. The fact that I’ve lived here my whole life and have never even known that these clubs existed. Again, I just assumed this was something left for the movies and for books to titillate hidden fantasies that we all have. And here I am, talking to a living, breathing person who walks in the darkness that intrigues me and inspires the stories I write. This guy embodies all that I try to convey on the pages of my books. No longer do I have to guess at the type of man who indulges in this lifestyle. I’m talking to the real thing. Kristen was right when she told me about this site—it’s a great place for research.
ALEC107: Are you okay?
ANONYMOUS: Yes. Just digesting. To be honest with you, I didn’t know these places actually existed. I know that makes me sound naïve.
ALEC107: You’re not naïve, Victoria.
ANONYMOUS: Can I ask you something personal?
ALEC107: Only if I can ask something personal in return.
ANONYMOUS: I feel like I’m being setup, but I’ll take the bait. So, my question: Why do you like unattached sex with random people?
As I wait for his response to come through, I think about the cliché reasons that I often write about and also what my other author friends write. It’s usually a man with a dark past: abuse, death of a loved one, or just your typical bad boy. In books, there is always a reason for the behavior and there’s always a girl that cures said behavior, and by the time you reach the ending, the guy is monogamous and head over heels in love.
ALEC107: For as far back as I can remember, I’ve had a copious sex drive. When I was young and discovered masturbation, I couldn’t get enough. I would jerk off every morning in the shower before school and often at night too. As I grew older, I never found myself in many relationships, and after a few failed ones, I found it easier to leave the strings cut from sexual partners. I want sex without expectations of preconceived standards most traditional women have of the men they sleep with. Sex is just that—sex. It’s a basic animal instinct that society has built a hedge of morals and values around. But it’s just sex. If I wanted true intimacy, then I would be in a relationship. Until I find a woman worthy of the stress relationships bring, I just want to indulge in my lascivious ways, get off, and go home.
And there it is—an unapologetic explanation without an underlying tragic past. A man who likes casual sex because he just does.
ANONYMOUS: Do you even want a relationship or are you content with your life as it is now?
ALEC107: I’m very content with my life. I’m not out purposely seeking a relationship, but if I found the right woman, I wouldn’t be opposed to settling down with her. Like I said before, I’ve always wanted children, so of course I want to eventually find myself in a relationship. I just don’t believe that’s something one can achieve with the mindset that we can actively make happen. I prefer a more organic approach.
ANONYMOUS: What will be, will be.
ALEC107: Exactly.
ANONYMOUS: I can appreciate that.
ALEC107: My turn to ask the question.
ANONYMOUS: Go easy on me.
I smile in anticipation of what he will want to know about me, and when his question pops up on the screen, I instantly blush.
ALEC107: When was the last time you touched yourself?
ANONYMOUS: OMG! NO! You can’t ask me that.
ALEC107: I can, and I did. Fair is fair. You know it was just yesterday when I last had sex, and I’ll give you one more: it was this morning when I last jerked off.
ANONYMOUS: You are more open with divulging that stuff than me.
ALEC107: Why are you so shy? According to you, we aren’t even friends, only strangers. No need to hide. So tell me.
ANONYMOUS: Why do you want to know?
ALEC107: The same reason you wanted to know about me. Curiosity. Plus, I like making