"Shouldn't I?" He thought of the people whose lives he'd taken, the bad guys the Man Wolf had ripped right out of life, thoughtlessly. And it came down on him hard that very soon Laura too would have that brute power, to kill as he'd killed, while she herself would be invulnerable.
There were no words now for him.
Images were crowding his mind, filling him with an ominous sadness, and a near despair. He pictured her in a country cemetery talking with the dead. He thought of those pictures of her children that he'd glimpsed. He thought of his family, always there, and then he thought of his own power, of that limitless strength he enjoyed as he mounted the rooftops, as the voices summoned him out of humanity and into the single-minded Man Wolf who would kill without regret or compassion.
"But you haven't fully changed yet, have you? Not yet?"
"No, not yet," she said. "Only the small changes so far," she said. She looked off without moving her head. "I can hear the forest," she said with a faint smile. "I can hear the rain in ways I never heard it before. I know things. I knew when you were approaching. I look at the flowers, and I swear I can see them grow, see them blossoming, see them dying."
He didn't speak. It was beautiful what she was saying and yet it was frightening him. Even the soft secretive look on her face frightened him. She was staring off. "There's a Norse god, isn't there, Reuben, who can hear the grass grow?"
"Heimdall," he said. "The keeper of the gate. He can hear the grass grow and see for a hundred leagues in the day or in the night."
She laughed. "Yes. I see the stars themselves through the fog, through the cloud cover; I see the sky no one else can see from this magical forest."
He should have said, Just wait, just wait until the full change comes on you, but his voice had died in him.
"I hear the deer in the forest," she said. "I can hear them now. I can almost … pick up the scent. It's faint. I don't want to imagine things."
"They're there. Two, out there, just beyond the clearing," he said.
She was watching him again, watching him in that impassive fashion, and he couldn't bear to look her in the eyes. He thought about the deer, such tender, exquisite creatures, but if he didn't stop thinking about them, he would want to kill both of them and devour them. How would she feel when that happened to her, when all she could think of was sinking her fangs into the neck of the deer and tearing out its heart while the heart was still beating?
He was aware that she was moving, coming around the table towards him. The soft clean scent of her skin caught him by surprise as the forest in his mind receded, dimmed. She settled in the empty chair to his right and then she reached out and put her hand on the side of his face.
Slowly he looked into her eyes.
"You're afraid," she said.