this point. Igor had taken the last ounce of trust she had in her judgment and smeared it all over like finger-paint on her broken heart.
She felt foolish now for all the times she’d berated her mother for man hating, for all the times she’d defended Team Soul Mate. Her mother really was right. Soul mates didn’t exist. Real, deep, abiding love and forever were enormous jokes.
“Trust you? Here’s a thought. If the whole soul mate thing is real, why haven’t you found yours then?” Yeah. Why hadn’t the matchmaker’s son made a match? She looked up at him, searching his amber-brown eyes. Damn, he was amazing to look at. Even in the bright light of early morning.
He winked when he looked down at her. “I guess it’s like the shoemaker’s son. Everyone in the village has shoes but him?”
“FYI, the village has DSW now. I think you haven’t found your soul mate because you’re too fond of leggy blondes. Not that I blame you because honestly, who isn’t?”
“Not everyone likes leggy blondes, Quinn. Your scorn for Igor’s rearing its ugly head. Besides, I thought Shawna was a redhead?”
Quinn bobbed her head as she dug a pair of jeans out of her dresser. “That she is. A redhead with all the trimmings.”
And if that sounded bitter—tough titties.
It wasn’t that she couldn’t see the appeal to leggy and gorgeous. On the contrary. She totally understood how Igor might find the jeans Shawna spray-painted on and the navel ring that lay against her lean abdomen just beneath her belly shirts appealing.
If she were to push that sex-bomb theory to the limits of the anger it brought, she could even see how thirty-six double-Ds might appear more exciting than her mere thirty-four Bs
Without question, Shawna was young, supple and beautiful. Young, supple, beautiful, and dumb as any inanimate object you could buy at The Dollar Store.
To be left for someone who pronounced the goddess Persephone’s name “Per-sef-phone” or who mispronounced the word disoriented, twisting it to “disorien-tay-ted”, was like a slap in the face. A hard one.
Khristos put his warm hands on her shoulders as she looked through her closet for a scarf. “Slow down.”
A warm heat traveled up her spine and stopped right in her chest. “Pick a speed. First we have to seize the day, and now you want me to slow my roll. Which is it?”
He turned her to face him, Spike still perched contentedly on his shoulder, his face buried in Khristos’s neck. “You’re frazzled. When you’re frazzled, it means you’re overwhelmed, and if you’re overwhelmed, you’ll be too focused on your anxiety to open up your heart and make proper matches.”
Her shoulders slumped. “How am I supposed to know who’s a good match and who isn’t, anyway? Is it a feeling? A vibe of some kind?”
“There are all sorts of things on the checklist for a successful match, and sometimes, you’ll match people knowing they won’t be together forever. You just have to know when to make a match like that for the greater good.”
Her fist tightened on the comforter still wrapped around her. “You’re a bundle of contradictions. Am I making matches for life or just for temporary flings?”
“Sometimes you’ll make a match to teach a lesson.”
“Like?”
“Like, sometimes someone is so hell bent and focused on what they think they want in a partner, they don’t really know what they need to be fulfilled in a relationship—even when it’s right under their noses. It’s your job to show them what’s all wrong by allowing them to stumble.”
Oh, she was good at that. Queen Stumbler, at your service.
Taking a step back from him, mostly to ease the warmth he created in her belly, she waved an ironic finger. “Now that I can do. I know heartache and a bag or ten of Lay’s Sour Cream & Onion potato chips. After all my failed attempts, I have some skill in the what’s-all-wrong-in-a-relationship area.”
“The best way I can describe what happens, and these are my mother’s words, is this: You know the feeling you get right in your chest when you see the person you love? Or hear their voice, or know it’s them calling you on your cell? That’s love, Quinn. You’ll feel that and much more, but that’s the Reader’s Digest version of it.”
In her chest? Her chest was many things these days, but it had never had any special feeling. Yet, he naturally assumed she was familiar with this feeling. Probably because of Igor and her confession