But then the pressure of his hands on my skin vanishes.
I open my eyes and blink at the sight of my cell.
I turn a full circle before I exhale in relief. I’m back. Safe inside the walls of my own space. The boy-predator is gone. I’m alone. Locked in a prison that I’m not even sure is real anymore. And I’m forced to admit that, for the first time since arriving, being in this room makes me feel safer than I ever thought it could.
5
In my dreams, I freeze in icy winds as voices whip around me, propelling me toward deeper levels of insanity. When I come to the edge of a cliff, the wind pushes me to jump. The voices add their encouragement.
Just one more step.
You can do it.
It will all be over.
No more pain.
Don’t you want this to end?
Tears harden on my cheeks, and when I look down, I realize my skin has turned to ice. I have turned to ice, and soon I will break into tiny shards to be carried away by the wind.
I wake with a start and sit up, pulling the blanket tightly around my shoulders as I struggle to orient myself to my surroundings. The lighting is the same as always: dim and full of shadows. My breath is visible in the damp chill, a misty white puff that dissipates before me.
My body aches from the thin, hard mattress, and even with the blanket drawn, I shiver, unable to stop, wishing desperately for warmth and food and my normal life.
Nothing about this new life is normal, and I’m loathe to imagine this is the way it’ll be moving forward.
I don’t know what time it is, but I picture myself midday at Sorbonne University, listening to a lecture about art history while I sip a café latte and nibble at a baguette I bought at the corner bakery on my way to class.
I would be scribbling notes in French—the language I tend to think and write in while at school—and afterward I’d spend the afternoon touring the local museums, studying the living history on display. My favorite is The Rodin Museum, though now when I think about the Gates of Hell I shudder as I realize I’ve descended into that nightmare.
“You awake, witch-girl?” An Australian accent from the cell across from mine calls out.
“Declan?” Though he and his brother sound alike, I can hear the difference in their inflections and tone. It’s a twin thing.
“The one and only,” he says with his standard snark. Only this time, it feels forced, and a thread of pain laces his voice.
“What happened to you?” I ask, relief spearing through me harder than I expected. “You were both gone.” Or you were never here, and I’m still just imagining you.
But there were others.
Are they here? Listening?
Were they even real?
“We had therapy,” he says, and I can tell by his tone what he thinks of that.
“Is Dean back too?” I ask.
Despite the chill it gives me, I stand and move to the edge of my cage, pressing my face against the bars. If I can see them, maybe that means they’re really here.
“Yes. He’s here.” There’s a shift in the shadows and Declan moves into the thin shaft of light. Just over his shoulder, I catch sight of Dean facedown on the cot in the corner, but then my gaze lands on Declan and I startle at his appearance. He looks sallow with dark circles under his eyes. And his hands…
"Why… why are your hands wolf paws?" I ask.
"It's part of their treatment," he says bitterly. "You'll find out soon enough."
"What are they treating you for?" I ask. "Why are you here?"
I almost don't want to know the answer, but I have to if I'm ever going to figure out how to break out of this hell.
"What do you mean?" he asks, his voice sounding off—even more off than it did just a moment ago.
"I mean what reason did they give for keeping you here?"
His claws click at the bars. Tick. Tick. Tick. The sound is like a metronome lulling me into some kind of trance.
"Oh, little witch-girl, you'll learn fast not to ask so many questions."
"Declan?" My voice hitches as he falls to the ground. "Declan!"
His scream echoes in the dungeon as his body morphs, fur growing over skin, muscles and bone breaking and twisting into something beast-like. It’s different from the first time he changed in front of me. More disturbing, more