Stevie untangled her arms and took hold of his left hand. Then she pulled him into her room. Julian used his free hand to push the door closed behind him. When she heard the click, she breathed out. She knew that somewhere she had conceded defeat. She’d give him anything but the truth if she could. But she knew she’d tell him soon. Stevie just had to figure out a way to confess.
Julian’s hands were in her hair before she could blink. His mouth found hers, kissing her as he walked her back to the bed. Their hands roamed where they could touch. Their lips only breaking contact for air. Soft moans filled her room. She had felt his tie beneath her fingers before she slipped it off from around his neck. Julian made quick work of taking off his jacket and letting it fall to the carpet. With it off and his lips working their magic on the soft spot below her ear, Stevie fisted his shirt and they fell onto the bed.
She let out a soft gasp the second he settled between her legs. His want for her was evident as he slowly grinded against her. Stevie let out a breathless moan as he licked and kissed up and down her neck.
“Julian,” she sighed as she loosened her grip on his shirt. Her hands wandered down his stomach until his belt buckle brushed her fingers.
“I don’t have condoms,” he muttered.
Her hands fell and rested on her stomach as she panted. Julian propped himself on an elbow and the disappointment was clear on his face.
“I left my wallet back at the office,” he revealed.
Stevie reached up and brushed his hair back. Then she placed a chaste kiss on his lips. She wanted things to go further, but she knew it would only create more cracks than resolutions. Julian had found a way not only to enter her heart but also her lungs. He had found a way to take away her free rein of her ability to breathe.
Wrapping her arms around his back, she brought him closer to her. His forehead rested on hers for a moment before he buried his face in the curve of her neck. She loved the way his heavy breaths sounded close to her ear. Loved the way his hands were on top of her head. And she was in love with the way his heartbeats felt against her chest.
“Let me straddle you,” she whispered.
“Hmmm, not a good idea, Blondie. We don’t have protection.”
She had pressed her lips into his hair before she instructed, “Shoes off. Pants off.”
He had nodded into her neck before his lips pressed a kiss on her collarbone. Then he got off her body and off the mattress. Stevie sat up and watched as he removed his shoes. His eyes met hers as he unbuckled his belt. His movements were slow, like a tease. She bit her lip as he unsnapped his pants and pushed them down, leaving him in his boxer briefs and his shirt.
Julian got on the bed and leant back on the upholstered headboard of her bed. Steve crawled over to him. Her hands had settled on his shoulders before she straddled him. Julian’s lips found hers before their tongues met and danced. Stevie was unable to help the moan she made into his mouth. Her hands trailed down his shirt to his buttons as she rocked her hips against his hardness.
“Blondie, I really am considering trying the pull-out method with you. But knowing what it’s like being inside you, it’s never going to happen.” He dragged his nose against hers and brushed her messy hair back.
Stevie shook her head as she popped one of his buttons. “I’m not risking unprotected sex. Not when I’m not on birth control. Plus, I can’t risk Noel and Clara hearing us. I can’t let anyone know what happened between us.”
His strong hands held her face back. “You mean Rob?”
She kept her eyes on her fingers as she slowly unbuttoned his shirt. When his shirt was completely unfastened, Stevie held the collar tight in her grasps. She had taken a deep breath before she looked him straight in the eye.
“We lie, Julian,” she stated breathlessly.
“Lie?” His eyebrows knitted.
Stevie had pulled his face closer to hers before she kissed his nose. “Please. We lie. We keep what’s happened a secret for a little while. I don’t know what we’re doing, but right now I need to understand and