This Is War, Baby - K Webster Page 0,15
This is not a part of me that is meant to be seen. It’s a part of me that I have never seen. I realize my fear stems in equal parts from deafening embarrassment at being touched in such a secret place, combined with the pain involved in being penetrated there. Closing my eyes, I attempt to conjure up images of Brandon. But all I can think about is him.
Gabe.
His dark, lust-filled eyes devouring me.
His unruly hair when it forms a veil over those evil eyes.
His full lips and hot mouth as it brings me pleasure, just as quickly as it spouts off words that bring me pain.
I jerk harshly and scream in pain at the intrusion, but he holds me steady. It’s my inclination to clench in self-preservation but that only seems to make it worse. Eventually, I attempt to relax and it slides in.
It’s foreign and unwanted and it doesn’t belong there.
“It looks so pretty in your ass. From here on out, you wear this all of the time until you need to shit or when I’m ready to fuck you there.”
I shudder and collapse onto the bed in defeat. It doesn’t really hurt now but it’s uncomfortable.
“Your mom told me you recently had the birth control shot. Is that right?”
I’m horrified at his words. “What? Why would she tell you that?”
“Let’s just say I expressed my concern over the probability that Brandon was fucking you. I was making sure she knew the possibility of pregnancy was there. Turns out, she’d already taken care of it.”
Technically Dad did. He’d carted me up to the female doctor and saw to it that I was examined. Of course he waited outside the examination room but afterwards, he informed the doctor of my decision to get the shot. Teens are irresponsible and forget to take pills, he’d told them. Such a personal matter and now Gabe has brought it up so callously. It’s humiliating.
“I hate you.”
He rolls me over onto my back and the plug jostles me from the inside. “And I love you, baby. Let me show you. Your first time should be perfect.”
I start to cry again but his mouth finds my neck and soon he’s sucking in that evil, erotic way that he seems to do so well. He kisses away my tears. Gently. His hands roam my body and I don’t even try to fight him off. When his hand slips past my pubic bone and connects with my sensitive clit, I buck against him. I must have clenched my ass because an odd sensation throbs from inside of me. It isn’t unpleasant either.
“Your first time will hurt but only a little. Then, you’ll want me all of the time, Baylee. As much as you want to eat and drink, you’ll want me inside your pretty little cunt.”
I whimper as he increases the pressure between my legs. He draws me closer and closer with each movement. I hate him. I absolutely hate him. Yet…
“Do you want me inside of you? Do you want to come all over my cock as I stretch you wide?”
His dirty words only seem to make me crazy for just that.
Yes.
“No.”
“Don’t lie, sweetheart.”
The pleasure is so close. I want it, just like he said I would. Before I can stop myself, I beg. “Please.”
“Please what?”
“I…” I trail off, unable to find the words.
“You want my thick cock inside of you?” he says. His words taunt me.
An embarrassed mewl croaks from me. “Yes.”
The tip of his erection pokes at my opening and I squirm. I should want to push him away and take off running. But I don’t. A sick part of me is curious and eager.
“I want your eyes on mine when I take you. Hear me, baby?”
I nod as tears leak out. “Okay.”
His mouth seizes mine for a moment and his kiss is ravenous—for one split second, he kisses me like a man would kiss the love of his life. His tongue ventures gently into my mouth. He moans ever so slightly, a sound I’ve never heard from him before. It’s all consuming and it helps me. It helps me cope with the reality of the situation.
I can do this.
“Look at me.”
My eyes fly to his and they flicker with excitement. I also don’t miss the adoring way he inspects me. That will be his weakness in the end. At least I hope it will be.
“I’m going to make love to you this first time, okay?”
A choked sob escapes me. “Thank you.”
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