angling toward me in her seat. “Of course, Rory, anything. What would you like to know?”
“Hmm.” I tap my knee under the table. “What was he like?”
Did he ever talk about me?
Did he miss me?
Did he care?
“He was the best, Rory. We had a great relationship. He had a wicked sense of humor and a massive musical talent. In fact, the only guy I know who’s more talented than him is Mal. Da used to call me McNugget, because I was small and a bit pudgy when I was a kid. Remember that, Mal? I was so offended for the longest time.”
She reaches and squeezes Mal’s shoulder. He is still looking at me. Kathleen’s words sound detached, but I chalk it up to her being upset over Mal showing up here with me.
“Did he have a lot of freckles, like us?” I ask, the question sounding dumber than it was in my head.
Thing is, I’ve never seen my dad. Ever. My mom told me he had dark hair and light eyes and three chins. Forever a poet, this woman.
“No.” Kathleen chuckles. “His face was pale and smooth. I got mine from Ma.”
I guess I got mine from my mom, too.
“Do you have a picture of him?” I fidget with my fingers under the table.
“I don’t believe I do.” She scrunches her nose. “Have you not seen him?”
I shake my head, swallowing the ball of tears settling in my throat. Maybe it was a mistake to come here and see the real family he left behind.
“Surely you have a picture or two of Glen, Kiki.” Mal frowns at Kathleen.
She bites her lip. “I’m sorry. Mam did a massive cleanup a few weeks ago and moved everything to the attic. She’s got the key for it, I suppose, but she’s out. I wish I could have known you were coming, Rory. I’d have asked her to leave it here.”
“Did he ever mention me?” I ask into my cup of tea, not wanting to see the pity in her face when she answers.
Even staring down, I can see Kathleen in my periphery putting down her cup of tea and sighing heavily. Almost theatrically. I don’t know why I do this to myself. Each question puts another nail into my self-esteem’s coffin.
“Oh, Rory, I really am so sorry.”
I lift the cup and bring it to my lips. The scorching liquid burns a path from my tongue down my throat, but I’m practically chugging it, longing to feel anything—even pain—to distract myself from what’s going on inside my head. Mal eventually lowers my hand with the cup.
“I’m sure he did here and there. He’d have loved you!” Kathleen tries desperately. “Da loved everyone, didn’t he, Mal? Even that stook, Jared, who sold knockoff Burberry on the street corner every Sunday.”
Mal gives her a weird look I can’t decipher, then stares at me in a way that makes me feel naked of clothes, skin, and bones. Like he’s looking into my soul, dissecting it with a knife and a fork.
He snaps out of it, stretching in his seat. “Excuse me, ladies. Nature’s calling, and it has a three-gallon piss for me to depart in the jacks.”
He stands up and saunters to the bathroom. I realize he knows this house by heart—been here probably dozens of times. He and Kath share history, chemistry. I should feel happy that Kathleen might end up with a guy like Mal, if she ever manages to tame him. Funny and charming and handsome.
But for some reason, I don’t.
As soon as Mal is out of earshot, I shake my head and smile. “He’s a wild card, huh?”
Kathleen’s sweet smile drops. She plucks a tube of lip gloss from her handbag on the table and squeezes a generous amount onto her pinched lips.
“What he is and what he’s not shouldn’t matter to you. He’s mine.” Her warm voice is now a cold, pointy blade running along my neck.
“Excuse me?” I slant my head back.
She smacks her lips, lifts her teacup—pinky in the air—and takes a slow sip. “The problem with Malachy is he has a weakness for strays. No matter how dirty, no matter how rabid.” She narrows her eyes at me. “No matter how dangerous.”
I study the way her face twists in revulsion, my mouth parting in shock.
Fake.
It was all fake.
My sister is not nice or timid or disoriented. She is the devil.
She hates me. She’s always hated me. That’s why Father Doherty wanted me to stay away. That’s why he directed