sister much, but Brian could almost feel the hollow place in Nick the rare times they did. If there’d been a chance of Finding her, he’d have done it like a shot. Nick had said no. “You said you had nothing left.” He bit his lip, hearing the accusation in his own voice. “I mean, you didn’t have to—”
Nick cut him off with a sharp wave. “I’d lost it, all right? The one thing of Ariana’s and I lost it years ago. But when we took apart my stuff in the trailer, there it was.”
“Oh!” He was about to offer to try immediately, right now— but Nick must have found it a week ago and he never said a word. Why didn’t he tell me?
It was Charlie who said, “Brian, could you do that Finding thing with it? Even if it’s years old?”
“Maybe. I can try.” He watched Nick and caught a little hunch of his shoulders. “If Nick wants me to.”
“Of course he wants…” Charlie paused, because Nick’s reluctance was unmistakable. “Or maybe not. Talk to us, Nicko. Why not?”
Nick snapped, “I never said no.”
“You didn’t say yes. Come on, I know you, remember? You spent a ton of time and risked your badge digging into records you weren’t supposed to see, looking for her. So why not this?”
“Because!” Nick ran a rough hand over his head, mussing his hair, and went to one knee to pick up a screw. He didn’t look at them as he wound the cord back around the power drill.
“I might not be able to do it anyhow,” Brian said, slowly feeling his way. “I’m maybe still not back to full power.”
Nick nodded at the tool in his hands. “Yeah! I don’t want to strain Brian. Not yet.”
Charlie obviously also heard the false note in the way Nick jumped on that, because he said, “I call bullshit. He could do a quick peek, to be sure she’s alive. Oh!”
Nick glanced up at them, his eyes bright. “Yeah. Oh.”
Brian remembered. “Like Keesha. As long as I don’t touch it…”
“…she’s still alive. Somewhere.”
Charlie sighed. “I get it. I do. But Nick, you’re not going to move on until you find out. You know how you are.”
“No. How am I?” His raised eyebrow was a challenge.
“You’re a moody, obsessive bastard is how you are. Remember all the time we spent browsing California property records, trying to find the people who bought their house, for a hint of a lead? You didn’t say, ‘Let’s not, in case it turns out bad.’”
“Maybe I should’ve.” Nick pushed his hair off his forehead. “No. Fuck. You’re right.”
“We can do it another time,” Brian offered. “Tomorrow or whenever you like.”
“Or now,” Charlie suggested. “Lori will be gone at least half an hour. Now’s a good time too.”
Nick looked up at each of them. Then he set the drill on the floor, got to his feet and said harshly, “Okay. Now.”
Charlie put a hand on his arm. “Sorry, Nick, I shouldn’t be pushing.”
Nick’s smile was a twisted mockery of his usual grin. “Sometimes I need pushing.” He shook off Charlie’s hand and went to the desk. Brian moved aside to let him open the drawer. Nick pulled out the box, slid the code bits around with the speed of practice, and opened the top. Without a second’s hesitation, he took out the little clip and shoved it at Brian. “Here. Do your thing.” He dusted his hands on his jeans as if they were dirty, not shaking.
Brian took another look at the little hair ribbon. A thread of green silk was unraveling from the end of the bow, tangled in the blunt plastic points of the clip. There’d probably been something printed on the ribbon once, but it was faded to a bare hint of color now. “I… maybe I should sit down.”
He eased to the floor and stretched out his legs, cradling the clip in his hands.
“Will this hurt you?” Nick asked. “It’s not worth you taking a risk.”
“It’s fine.” He hoped it was. “I’ve done quick peeks recently. They don’t hurt.” Much.
“You swear?”
“Cross my heart.” He brushed the front of his shirt.
“Okay, then.” Nick’s voice was rough. “What do you see?”
Brian closed his eyes and pressed the child’s barrette between his palms. A hint of pain twinged at his temples, warning that this wasn’t a walk in the park yet. He opened his Finder eye.
Darkness, streaked with color. Nick, Lori. He pushed his attention toward the ribbon. Nick. Amber shiny Nick.