The surrounding chatter faded and he could distinctly feel his heart thumping. He said stupidly, “I, ah, see.”
“I did my thesis in plasma physics, but I’ve been reading Tanninger’s papers, and yours of course, and, well, I think that’s where the real physics is going to be done. I mean there’s a whole set of cosmological consequences, don’t you think? It seems to me—” and Markham, who Gordon saw was really only a decade or so younger than he, was off, sketching ideas he had about Tanninger’s work. Markham had some interesting notions about the nonlinear solutions, ideas Gordon had not heard before. Despite his shock, he found himself following the technical parts with interest. He could tell Markham had the right feel for the work. Tanninger’s use of the new calculus of exterior differential forms had made his ideas difficult for the older generation of physicists to approach, but to Markham it presented no problem; he was not hobbled by the more accepted, gnarled notation. The essential images conjured up in the mind’s eye, of paradoxical curves descending with elliptic logic to the plane of physical reality, Markham had mastered. Gordon found himself becoming excited; he yearned for a place to sit down and scribble out some arguments of his own, to let the impacted symbols of mathematics speak for him. But then an aide approached, wearing white gloves, and intruded, nodding respectfully but firmly and saying, “Dr. Bernstein, Mrs. Bernstein, we require your presence now.” Markham shrugged and grinned lopsidedly and in what seemed an instant was gone among the crowd. Gordon collected himself and took Marsha’s arm. The aide cleared a path for them. Gordon had an impulse to call out to Markham, find him, ask him to dinner that evening, not let the man slip away. But something held him back. He wondered if this event itself, this chance meeting, could have been the thing that framed the paradoxes—but no, that made no sense, the break had come in 1963, of course, yes. This Markham was not the man who would calculate and argue in that distant Cambridge. The Markham he had just seen would not die in a plane accident. The future would be different.
A puzzled expression flickered across his face and he moved woodenly.
They met the Secretary for Health, Education & Welfare, a man with a tapered nose and a tight, pouting mouth, the two forming a fleshy exclamation point. The aide ushered them all into a small private elevator, where they stood uncomfortably close to each other—inside our personal boundary spaces, Gordon observed abstractedly—and the Secretary for HEW emitted boisterous one-liners, all shaped with a speech writer’s gloss. Gordon recalled that this particular Cabinet appointment had been a highly political one. The elevator slid open to reveal a pinched passageway packed with unmoving people. Several men gave them an obvious once-over and then their eyes went neutral again, heads routinely swiveling back to assigned directions. Security, Gordon supposed. The Secretary led them through a narrow channel and into a larger room. A short woman came bustling over, dressed as though about to go to the opera. She looked like the sort who habitually put her hands up to her string of pearls and took a deep breath before speaking. As Gordon was framing this thought she did precisely that, saying, “The auditorium is filled already, we never thought there would be so many, so early. I don’t think there is any point Mr. Secretary in staying back here just through that way everybody’s out there already almost.”
The Secretary moved forward. Marsha put a hand on Gordon’s shoulder and reached up. “Your tie’s too tight. You look like you’re trying to strangle yourself.” She loosened the knot with deft fingers, smoothed it out. Her teeth bit into her lower lip in her concentration, pressing until the red flesh was pale beneath the slick finish of lipstick. He remembered the way the beach turned white beneath his feet as he ran on it.
“Come. Come,” the pearled lady urged them. They walked across a stark, marbled wedge of space and abruptly onto a stage. Spotlighted figures milled about. Chairs scraped. Another aide in the absurd white gloves took Marsha’s arm. He led the two of them into the glare. There were three rows of chairs, most already occupied. Marsha was at the far end of the front row and Gordon next to her. The aide saw that Marsha negotiated a safe landing. Gordon plunked himself down.