Things You Save in a Fire - Katherine Center Page 0,12
showed up. And even though the only way that fire was going to go out was to burn itself to the ground, we put water on it anyway. Because that’s what people wanted us to do.
“Hydraulic public relations, Captain,” I answered.
She nodded, like, Exactly. “Image matters. When they see us coming, they need to know we’re the good guys. They need to let us get in and get to work.”
I nodded.
“Do you know what the trouble with women is, Hanwell?”
I shook my head.
“Women don’t look like firefighters.”
No argument there.
“You know Austin is a very progressive department,” she said next.
I did know that, of course. Anyone who’d seen our rainbow flag flying, or shopped at one of our vegan/kosher bake sales, or seen our fire marshal tooling around in a Prius knew we were a progressive department.
“The city wants to update our image,” she said. “And—again, up until last night—I would have said you were a perfect candidate to lead the way. You’re smart as hell, and you’re strong as an ox, and you don’t seem to be scared of anything.”
“Thank you.”
“I’m not saying you’re reckless. I mean you have a steadiness about you that’s particularly well suited to the job.”
I nodded.
“You’re not just a token female, is what I’m saying. You’re actually good.”
I’d assumed that went without saying, but okay.
“After we announced you were getting the valor award, the mayor and the fire chief met and made it official,” the captain went on. “They wanted to enlist you as part of a PR campaign to redefine the look of the fire service. Billboards, TV interviews, bus ads. You and a few others. They put together a whole multicultural A Team.”
Whoa.
“But that”—she pulled her reading glasses down her nose—“was before yesterday.”
I nodded but didn’t say anything.
She studied me. “What the hell happened, Hanwell?”
What the hell did happen? How to even begin? I stared at my hands.
“I want to help you,” the captain said. “But I can’t help you if you won’t talk to me.”
It wasn’t that I wouldn’t talk to her. I wasn’t sure if I could.
I took a breath. “The councilman?” I began. “From last night? I knew him in high school. He was a senior when I was a sophomore.”
She waited, all impatient patience. “And?”
But I couldn’t seem to arrange my thoughts into words. Subject-verb-object. It shouldn’t be that hard. I opened my mouth, but no sounds came out.
She shook her head. “You’ve got to give me something.”
I nodded. Something. Okay. I leaned forward and looked right into her eyes. “He’s a bad person,” I said at last.
She waited for more, and when it didn’t come, she lifted her hands. That’s it?
I nodded. That pretty much summed it up. I leaned a little closer. “He’s a very, very bad person.”
Then her face shifted. She seemed to get it somehow. Not that she suddenly, telepathically knew the specifics of how he was a bad person, but she got that on some level the specifics didn’t matter. She knew me. She trusted me. I had proved myself over and over to be a moral person, and a brave one, and a selfless one. In that moment, based on my expression, she knew.
She knew in that way that other women just know.
I wasn’t joking around, and I wasn’t being flip, and I hadn’t lost my mind, and—most important—I had my reasons. She didn’t need more details, and she wasn’t going to push for them. If I said he was bad, then he was bad. Case closed.
She sighed and dropped her shoulders.
“They’re willing to overlook it.”
I blinked.
“They can’t put you on the PR team, of course, because it would be a media fiasco. But they’re still willing to promote you to lieutenant and chalk it up to an ‘interpersonal conflict.’ You’re certainly not the first firefighter to ever get in a fistfight.” I saw the corner of her mouth trying to avoid a smile. “Though you might be the first lady firefighter to ever pummel a smug politician to the ground.”
I looked down at my hand.
She said, “I hear he got a concussion.”
I gave a tiny shrug. “He deserved it.”
I wasn’t sure what to make of what she was saying. I had felt certain last night, back alone in my apartment, that I was facing a suspension, at the very least.
Not a promotion.
“We could,” she went on, “just let this all blow over, give it a year or so, and then quietly promote you. How does that sound?”