Their Will be Done - Logan Fox Page 0,40

him talking about something personal. So I ask him the first thing that pops into my head.

“Were my parents good people?” I ask.

He frowns at me, and then slowly sinks into his chair. His eyes never leave me as he nips at the tip of a cigarette from his box and draws it out with his teeth to light it.

“Sit, child.”

I obey without thinking. Thankfully there’s already a chair near my ass else I’d have ended up on the floor because I obey without thinking.

“Would you like a drink?”

I nod. Gabriel sits forward in his armchair, twists to the side, and pours out two glasses of wine. One is little more than a splash in the glass, the other is close to the brim.

The sissy inside me wants to refuse his offer, but I push aside Trinity the Wimp just as she starts yelling about how wrong this is.

“Why didn’t you attend Father Quinn’s counseling session?” Gabriel asks.

I had just brought the glass to my lips, but I snatch it away again. “He told you?”

Father Quinn replaced Gabriel when he’d left Redmond. I’d never liked him—he stank of Fisherman’s Friend sweets because he somehow thought it would cover up his halitosis.

I don’t remember much about the week after my parents were killed. I do remember hearing words like “shock” and “therapy” bandied around everywhere I went.

I’d also forgotten that he’d offered counseling. More than once.

“I couldn’t talk to him,” I say truthfully.

“Can you talk to me?”

I look up. He’s watching me with a most familiar look in his warm, brown eyes.

Patience.

Sympathy.

And with the wholehearted belief that whatever sins I had committed, we could overcome them together.

How the hell can a man like this possibly be involved with Ghosts and Keepers?

I almost want to tell him everything, just so we can have a good laugh about it and the world can go back to normal.

But I know my life will never be the same again, so does it matter what degree of fucked up I land on?

We’re all mad here.

No, we’re all fucked up crazy here.

“Trinity?”

My eyes snap back into focus. I take a tiny sip of wine, and then another because I barely tasted the first. It’s not as brutally sour as the one the Brotherhood poured for me.

“I don’t know how much you can help,” I say hesitantly before taking another sip. “You weren’t there at the end.”

Gabriel looks down, and shadows darken his eyes. For a heart-wrenching moment, I think I’ve already blown my cover and pissed him off. I fully expect him to toss me out of his room. Instead, he lights himself another cigarette.

“You don’t smoke, do you?” he asks.

“No.”

“You’re right to sound disgusted,” he says through a faint laugh. “It’s a disgusting habit.” A thick plume of smoke jettisons from his lips. He sips from his glass, and then sits back in his seat, his eyes on the fire.

“I often wonder if they would still be alive if I’d stayed at Redmond,” Gabriel says.

The wine glass clicks against my teeth as I turn to face him. I hurriedly lower it into my lap. “Why would you say that?”

“The same reason you wonder if you’d be dead had you been in the car with them.” He drags hard at his cigarette, his voice tight as he speaks without expelling any more smoke. “One of Satan’s many games, keeping us fixated on the past.” Finally, he empties his lungs and then takes another sip of wine. “So easy for him to slip in without you noticing when you’re so busy replaying events over and over to see if there ever would have been a different outcome. Like a spider crawling in under the door.”

The longer he speaks, the tighter my chests grows. I’ve never heard him talk like this. His sermons are dry—all repetition and loosely connected anecdotes taken out of context—but this?

If this is how his conversations went with my parents, then no wonder they’d stay downstairs for hours after I’d been sent to bed. Our house had thick doors. Even with my ear pressed to the wood, all I heard was the murmur of low voices.

“Your parents are dead, Trinity. That’s not something you can change or control. What you can control is how you feel about it.”

“I’m angry,” I say, without waiting for him to ask.

“At them, or yourself?”

I squirm in my seat. “Both.” Then I shake my head. “No. Just myself.”

“Because you didn’t go with them to church?”

I nod.

“And why is that? Why