Tempt Me - Caitlin Crews Page 0,51

go in. A week later, it was the same.

Two weeks after that, Conrad was forced to accept that he simply didn’t want anyone else.

He came to this conclusion in the bright light of a late summer day, sitting in the office building that he walked to every morning from his own personal church. It was located in one of those lovely buildings that lined the Golden Triangle, where he could look out over Paris and be glad. La Tour Eiffel. The American Cathedral. The plush green trees that lined Avenue George V. And in the distance, Tour Montparnasse.

Usually having Paris at his feet was soothing.

But today he raked his hands through his hair, wondered what the hell had become of him, and called his best friend.

“I don’t understand the issue,” Dorian said after Conrad had laid out the scenario for him. Grudgingly, because still Rory felt like his. Only his. “So she’s brand-new. So what. If you don’t handle her, someone else will. How do you imagine you’ll feel about that?”

“I’m not in the market for feelings,” Conrad said darkly.

Dorian laughed. “You can control anything, brother. But not that.”

Conrad sighed, glaring out at Paris and seeing only Rory. And the things he wanted, even when he knew better.

“The trouble is,” he said, “even if I thought it was appropriate, I don’t know if I have it in me.”

There was a pause, then. Conrad could hear Berlin street traffic. The muffled sound of conversations in animated German.

“Listen,” Dorian said after a moment. “Marie Jeanette wasn’t a referendum on your life. I know that your narrative is that she changed, but she didn’t, Conrad. She lied.”

Of all the things he thought Dorian might have said, it wasn’t that.

And Dorian wasn’t finished. “She never wanted the things you did. She wanted a meal ticket. When’s last time you saw her and Claude in any kind of scene? That’s not part of their life.”

“Many people take their play private,” Conrad said. “Including, as an example, you.”

He regretted it the moment he said it, given said private play involved his sister these days.

“But it’s still a huge part of my life,” Dorian said, then laughed at the expression on Conrad’s face he must have sensed was there. “Though I will spare you the details.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Conrad said dryly. “My understanding is that you and Erika both took holy orders.”

Dorian only laughed again. “Marie Jeanette didn’t want to play, ever. Now she doesn’t have to. She used you, you rightly scraped her off, and I don’t think you should allow the memory of that situation to inform what you do now. You’re allowed to care, Conrad. That’s not a detriment to who you are as a dominant or as a man. It’s what makes you both of those things.”

Because, though his friend wouldn’t say it, Dorian had never been among those who thought Conrad was heartless.

And it was with his best friend’s words ringing in his ears, whether he wanted them to or not, that Conrad told his secretary to hold all his calls and cancel his appointments, because he was going out.

He assumed that Rory might be anywhere, really. The whole city was available to her, after all, since she went about cleaning people’s houses. He assumed she would be off intruding on the privacy of others—and why did he now find that amusing?—but when he went to her flat, the chatty man in the boulangerie below was only too happy to inform him that Mademoiselle Morton did not work on Tuesdays.

Conrad hadn’t quite believed where the man had said she was instead.

The truth of the matter was, he had never heard of a cat café.

But when he stalked his way down the street and to the very edge of her neighborhood, the evidence was impossible to ignore. Sure enough, there was a cat café.

A café. With cats.

And not merely a motif of cats, as he had convinced himself on the walk over.

But a café in which there were actual cats. Roaming about.

Conrad wrenched open the door, looked inside, and was not the least bit surprised to find Rory sitting at a café table, a coffee at her elbow, a white cat with a smushed-in face in front of her and a giant ginger one on her lap.

There were cats everywhere. They were covering all the surfaces, climbing up and down trees made of furniture, presumably put there for that purpose.

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