I miss the sounds you make when I make love to you. I miss being near you, having you close. I’ve missed everything about you.”
I know his loving words and the feel of him inside me are going to push me over the edge soon. The way he slides into me with each stroke is almost like eating chocolate when you’ve been away from it for so long. With each piece, it’s one delicious bite after another, filling the craving you’ve been yearning for so long. My senses are hyperaware as I feel every single part of his skin on mine. The way he moves up and down on me with each heavenly thrust.
“Jake,” I cry as my body climbs and climbs.
He senses me getting close and speeds up his pace a little. My legs go rigid as the tingles cascade over my body and start swimming in my head. The beautiful stars appear between my eyes, making me smile in elation.
With each thrust, my hands grip on Jake’s bottom, pulling him into me harder and harder “Ana!” Jake cries, and that’s enough to make me explode.
I scream out his name as my pussy contracts violently around his cock, pulling him deeper and deeper into me. Jake pumps faster, and I know it’s not going to be long before he’s right there with me.
“Fuck!” he grunts as he finds his release. After a few more thrusts he collapses on top of me, both of us panting and sweaty.
We lay with each other for a while, neither one of us saying anything as there is nothing that needs to be said.
There’s nothing that can be said.
Both of us know that once the morning comes, reality of life outside these walls will come crashing down. For now, though, I allow myself to feel what it’s like to be back in his arms again.
Back where I belong.
We take time stroking each other for what seems like hours before I can hear the familiar deep breathing sounds from Jake.
He’s fast asleep.
I watch him for a while, taking in his beauty. He looks so serene when he’s asleep, like he doesn’t have a care in the world. What I wouldn’t give to have that kind of serenity throughout my days. I smile, taking in every single molecule of his features, thinking how much I love this man. I love him so much it hurts.
An unwelcome stab of pain hits me as I realize just how terrified I feel in this moment. The fear grips me worse than any moment I had with Tony when he abducted me and tried to kill me on that unforgettable day.
The fear so potent, I find myself off the bed, frantically trying to get dressed. I check my pocket and find I still have my key card, so I very quietly head for the door.
Before I reach the door, I think of something. Something that has me quickly back-tracking and heading for the desk at the end of the room. There I sit, looking once over my shoulder to see if Jake’s still asleep. He’s snoring softly, so I know for now that I’m safe.
Picking up a hotel pen, I grab the notepad on the desk and start writing.
Dearest Jake,
I know you’re going to wake to an empty bed and believe that I hate you for coming for me, but please don’t for a second think that. I’m glad you came. It means I can take this memory of you and hold on to it a little bit longer. However, you know as well as I do that once we leave here tomorrow life will go back to normal, and your attention—quite rightly—will be on someone else. But I can’t leave without at least telling you something.
I love you.
I understand that you know this, but I couldn’t leave without putting my thoughts down on paper. I will always love you. Being apart will never change that fact.
But, and there is always a but, at the end of the day, my mum’s going to give birth to my brother … and you’re quite possibly the father. It’s a fact we both know we can never escape from. A fact I need to bring to both our attention every now and then just to emphasize the enormity of our situation.
Neither of us wanted this, I know that, but you must see why I need you to stay away. Again, I am asking you to respect this request.