holding her. He needed to hold her. He’d come so close to losing her.
He carefully moved his hand from her back, sliding over her hips and then low on her belly. He cupped the area just above her pelvis where the baby—his baby—was nestled.
That knowledge blew him away. His baby. A life created by him and Angelina. Part of him was shamed that the baby had been created in a moment of blind lust, at a time when he’d lost complete control. He would have rather the conception happened when he’d tenderly made love to Angelina. But their relationship wasn’t tender. It wasn’t easy. It was volatile. She gave and he took. But that was going to end. Starting now.
A soft knock sounded at the door, and he stiffened. Then it cracked open and Connor stuck his head in.
“Uh, I can come back,” he said.
“No, it’s okay. She’s sleeping. Just keep it down,” Micah said.
Connor walked in, followed by Nathan. They stopped at the foot of the bed and stared down at Angelina sleeping in Micah’s arms.
“How is she doing?” Nathan asked.
“She woke up for just a few minutes and the nurse gave her pain medication. She’s been out ever since. Doc said the shot was just a flesh wound and she’ll be okay.”
“And the baby?” Connor asked softly.
“According to lab work, everything’s normal.”
“Hey, that’s great, man. You gonna kick my ass if I congratulate you?” Nathan asked.
Micah smiled. “No, not at all. I think I’ll be happy about it once it’s all said and done and I know for sure Angelina’s going to be all right. She’s my priority right now.”
“They found Devereaux,” Connor said. “Just like Angelina said. Tied up in the abandoned house he took her to. She worked him over pretty good. He looked like shit.”
“Good. I wish she’d killed the bastard,” Micah gritted out. “I was such a goddamn fool for trusting him. I brought him right to her front door. Hell, I practically gift wrapped and delivered her up on a silver platter.”
“Don’t beat yourself up, man,” Nathan said. “He wasn’t going to stop until he had her. She took care of herself. You should be proud of her for that. Think I’ll have her teach Julie a thing or two about self-defense.”
Connor snorted. “Men are already afraid of Julie.”
Nathan grinned. “That’s good. Then I don’t have to worry about beating their asses for getting too close to her. Now I can lead a peaceful existence.”
“Not if you keep her around for a long time,” Connor said.
Nathan smiled. “As a matter of fact, I’m going to pick up the ring tomorrow.”
“Hey that’s great, man,” Micah said sincerely. “Julie’s a great girl. You know I love her to death.”
He hadn’t seen Nathan so happy since he’d hooked up with Julie. He remembered how happy he’d been with Hannah. He wanted that again. He wanted what his friend had. It hit him like a ton of bricks. Longing. Envy. He wanted what Angelina had so sweetly offered him. Her love. Her trust. And he never wanted to let go.
He’d wanted some kind of guarantee that he’d never hurt again like he’d hurt when Hannah died. But what he’d experienced in the hours following Angelina’s abduction was a hell like no other. There had never been any hope when he’d learned of Hannah’s death. It was quick, merciful. He’d spent the longest day of his life not knowing if Angelina was alive or dead or if he’d ever see her again.
Now that he had her back, he only wanted one more day. One at a time. To make the best of each and every one.
“You okay, man?” Connor asked.
“I’ve been such a dumbass.”
He pressed his lips to Angelina’s temple and breathed in the scent of her hair.
How much had he hurt her with his adamancy? He’d told her he’d take whatever she had to offer but told her in no uncertain terms not to expect a damn thing from him. He winced as his own words played over and over in his memory.
“You finally figure it all out?” Nathan asked.
Micah turned to look at his friend. “Figure what out?”
“What the rest of us have known from the day Angelina walked back into your life.”
“I didn’t love her then,” Micah admitted. “She blindsided me.”
“Don’t they always,” Nathan drawled. “Julie ring any bells? Woman was as subtle as a freight train, but hey, us guys live in stupidity, or so I’m told.”