“No way.” He’s gleeful. “You slept in? I woke you up?”
I fal to the floor and frantical y squish clothes into my suitcase.
“You haven’t packed yet?”
“I was gonna finish this morning! WOULD YOU FREAKING HELP ALREADY?” I tug on a zipper. It catches a yel ow Bat symbol, and I scream in
frustration.
We’re going to miss our flight. We’re going to miss it, and it’s my fault. And who knows when the next plane will leave, and we’l be stuck here all day, and I’l never make it in time for Bridge and Toph’s show. And St. Clair’s mom will cry when she has to go to the hospital without him for her first round of internal radiation, because he’l be stuck in an airport on the other side of the world, and it’s ALL. MY. FAULT.
“Okay, okay.” He takes the zipper and wiggles it from my pajama bottoms. I make a strange sound between a moan and a squeal.The suitcase final y
lets go, and St. Clair rests his arms on my shoulders to steady them. “Get dressed. Wipe your face off. I’l take care of the rest.”
Yes, one thing at a time. I can do this. I can do this.
ARRRGH!
He packs my clothes. Don’t think about him touching your underwear. Do NOT think about him touching your underwear. I grab my travel outfit—
thankful y laid out the night before—and freeze. “Um.”
St. Clair looks up and sees me holding my jeans. He sputters. “I’l , I’l step out—”
“Turn around. Just turn around, there’s no time!”
He quickly turns, and his shoulders hunch low over my suitcase to prove by posture how hard he is Not Looking. “So what happened?”
“I don’t know.” Another glance to ensure his continued state of Not Looking, and then I rip off my clothes in one fast swoop. I am now official y stark
naked in the room with the most beautiful boy I know. Funny, but this isn’t how I imagined this moment.
No. Not funny. One hundred percent the exact opposite of funny.
“I think I maybe, possibly, vaguely remember hitting the snooze button.” I jabber to cover my mortification. “Only I guess it was the off button. But I had the alarm on my phone set, too, so I don’t know what happened.”
Underwear, on.
“Did you turn the ringer back on last night?”
“What?” I hop into my jeans, a noise he seems to determinedly ignore. His ears are apple red.
“You went to see a film, right? Don’t you set your mobile to silent at the theater?”
He’s right. I’m so stupid. If I hadn’t taken Meredith to A Hard Day’s Night, a Beatles movie I know she loves, I would have never turned it off.We’d already be in a taxi to the airport. “The taxi!” I tug my sweater over my head and look up to find myself standing across from a mirror.
A mirror St. Clair is facing.
“It’s all right,” he says. “I told the driver to wait when I came up here. We’l just have to tip him a little extra.” His head is stil down. I don’t think he saw anything. I clear my throat, and he glances up. Our eyes meet in the mirror, and he jumps. “God! I didn’t . . . I mean, not until just now ...”
“Cool. Yeah, fine.” I try to shake it off by looking away, and he does the same. His cheeks are blazing. I edge past him and rinse the white crust off my face while he throws my toothbrush and deodorant and makeup into my luggage, and then we tear downstairs and into the lobby.
Thank goodness, the driver has waited, cigarette dangling from his mouth and annoyed expression on his face. He yammers angrily at us in French,
and St. Clair says something bossy back, and soon we’re flying across the streets of Paris, whizzing through red lights and darting between cars. I grip
the seat in terror and close my eyes.