glad Macy and Madison have their relationship back again. Things are still a little rocky but every day they are getting better, or at least it seems that way.
It feels absolutely amazing to have things a little right with the world for once. Slowly but surely we are circling back around to what we used to be. I’d like to think that Steven is looking down on us and is proud of us. We are meant to be like this, there for each other facing our fears, reveling in our happiness, holding each other during our sorrows, and high-fiving each other over our triumphs. We lost our way for a bit but we’re finding our way home.
The third quarter starts back up and we score another three points and seven in the fourth. The Longhorns got their single touchdown in the first quarter and couldn’t make any other plays. We won the game thirty to seven.
I’m the first one on the field to congratulate Cash. He did an amazing fucking job blowing the Longhorns away in their house. The crowd swarms in wanting Cash for interviews so I make my rounds to the other guys.
Once I’ve congratulated everyone I see Madison and Macy standing off to the side. I don’t blame them for not wanting to go into that shark tank right now. Those sports reporters will stop at nothing to get what they want.
“You ready to get out of here?” I ask them.
Madison shakes her head. “No, I’m going to wait here for him.”
“I’ve had enough excitement for one day, take me to bed.” Macy laughs. “I barely slept and I’m exhausted.”
I look to Madison. “You going to be okay by yourself.” It makes me a little uncomfortable leaving her here but I want some alone time with Macy.
“I’m fine. Get out here,” she laughs.
“You don’t have to tell me twice.”
Madison calls over her shoulder. “Keep it on your bed though, alright?”
Macy and I laugh as we walk away with real smiles on both our faces for the first time in three years.
December 31, 2013
Canby, Oregon
Macy, Madison, and I flew back together while Cash had to catch the flight with the team. The first thing that Macy and I did when we dropped Madison off at their parents’ house was go to the store for a pregnancy test. When we woke up this morning first thing Macy did was throw up. She blamed it on her nerves because she hates to fly. I’ve come to realize that Macy is avoiding this test. She’s afraid of the outcome, afraid that if it is positive that she’ll have pushed me too far and lost me for good.
I called her out on it and then she blamed it on the rough sex that we had when we got back to the room last night. I chuckle to myself sitting here on my bed while Macy’s in the bathroom. Macy needing it rough sometimes makes me laugh because it’s funny I never picked up on that before but I’m sure as hell not complaining about it either. She asked me to put my hand around her throat during sex. I couldn’t do it at first but she wasn’t having it. So I did it. It was hot and I think it was the best sex of my life.
Macy steps out of the bathroom and holds the test in her hand. She’s looking down at it.
“I thought you had to leave it flat for a few minutes?”
She still hasn’t looked up.
“Macy?”
Finally, she looks up and a small, beautiful smile graces her face. “I didn’t need to.”
“Huh?”
She looks back down at the test and leans against the door frame. “I think it’s broken maybe.”
“Broken?” I’m getting more confused by the second.
“Can you hand me my phone?” I reach over on the bed and bring her phone to her.
“Hold this,” she says handing me the test and starts tapping away on her phone.
I don’t look down at the test because I don’t know what I want the answer to be. In ways, I want Macy all to myself for a little while. I want to get drafted to the NFL before worrying about kids. But then on the other hand if she was pregnant I’d be okay with that too. Everything happens for a reason, right?
“So,” Macy says taking the test from my hands. “I texted everyone.”
“Why?” I ask curious.
She glances down at the test in her hand again and then holds it close to me