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That wasn’t going to work either, and I had no interest in wiping some old guy’s ass for him. I was getting desperate. I took a deep breath and looked up.

I scoped out the apartment, which was empty: just a bed, a desk, and stacks of books across my floor. My record player sat next to my bed, spinning with no needle scratching the surface. An old rotary phone with no cord attached to the wall was on my desk. It was more for show, more for the feel. Much like my Bluetooth typewriter, which sat on a wobbly old IKEA desk in the corner. I stared at the writing machine. It seemed to have its own personality, an aura, even. I was overcome with fear.

Fear. That once again I would not be able to finish what I’d started. That I was a shit writer. That I was a born failure. A loser. A pathetic bum. Fear. That Lola was right. That I couldn’t deliver for Ed Nortan. That I’d have to move back in with my mom. That’d I be thirty with nothing to show for myself. Fear. That I would turn out like my absentee father—who wound up a penniless schizophrenic who committed suicide in a psychiatric hospital.

I had already lost the only love of my life. If I couldn’t do this, if I couldn’t give myself that The End with this book, then my life would never truly be my own.

I gripped the newspaper, stood up, and walked to the bathroom. I set the paper down next to the sink and splashed my face with water. Just then, the lights flared. I rubbed my eyes, and looked in the mirror. There were two of me. My mind felt cloudy. I felt like someone was talking at me. As the other me dissipated, I stared at myself.

“No matter what happens, finish the book! No matter what happens, finish the book! Stay inspired, do anything to finish this book! Finish the book! Your life depends on it.”

I repeated this to myself over and over as the lights flickered.

“Just finish the book! No matter what happens, finish the book!”

Repeating my mantra, I began to feel like I was being split in two. Like the old me was out of my body and this new me was here—present and yet not. I couldn’t control my thoughts or my body. My head felt as if it were underwater. Flashes of numbness shot down my fingers. The lights flared again and it felt like I could literally see this other me by my side, if for only an instant.

I felt terror but also comfort. I rinsed my face once more and looked down at the newspaper next to the sink. Muldoon’s Grocery was circled in red.

I’d head there in the morning to fill out an application and hopefully get a job that would inspire me to finish this book once and for all.

But by now you know I got that job.

Now that you’re all caught up, we can finish that eureka moment I was having walking with Frank through aisle nine.

CHAPTER 5

AISLE NINE

“Are you listening to me?” Frank said. “You look pretty zoned out right now, and I’m trying to school you with this knowledge!”

The weird part? Everything he was saying, all the information he was blurting out, I felt like I knew it subconsciously. You see, Frank seemed to always have bits of information, like a walking Snapple cap. Imagine all the shit you learn throughout your life, the things your brain keeps locked—spelling, family faces, pattern recognition, first hand job under the bleachers freshman year, visual and spatial processing—all stuff for your survival.

Then there’s the shit you “learn” but don’t retain—factoring and linear equations, what you had for breakfast three days ago, nutritional information about bananas . . .

Now, Frank, his brain was like entirely subconscious.

The shit a normal brain is supposed to throw away, it’s like Frank’s kept it, replacing the main things you need with the clutter of his own subconscious. And that was another unique reason he was perfect for my novel.

“Flynn!” he yelled.

“Oh, sorry, man, I was just thinking about—”

Oh no, I thought, stopping myself midsentence. I couldn’t tell him what I was doing. Why I was really here.

“Thinking about what?” asked Frank.

If I said more, I would blow my cover as an undercover author, potentially ruining my chances of finishing this book. So, I said the first thing that came to mind that was sure to