This was all he had ever wanted, a woman just like this—sophisticated, accomplished, beautiful and already set up in life. A woman who would bring pride to his name, to his family. Darla was established and came from a good, strong, close family.
And yet it felt all wrong.
All the way to Arcata she told him about her current course of study, about drug trials and experiments and the FDA and the DEA and how people in her position had to be cognizant of the laws. As she had done before, she segued into the bonus perks after major sales and contracts, not to mention the generous expense account for the wining and dining of doctors and hospital administrators, as if these were the really important parts of her job. “That’s one of the best parts,” she admitted. “Entertaining my clients. And I’m good at it—I have one of the best client lists in the company, and I haven’t been there that long.”
“But what if Bob had lived?” he asked before he could stop himself. “You wouldn’t have been able to stay in one place long.”
“We’d been married less than a year,” she said. “Before he deployed.”
And it occurred to him, there was no Marine base in the Denver area. “How did you meet?” he asked.
She gave a heavy sigh, as if she’d rather not talk about it. Possibly the memories were still painful. “He was on leave, skiing with friends. I met him in Vail.”
“But he wasn’t stationed around there… .”
“No. But I traveled so often anyway, it was easy to go to him. Like all the time. I can work from home a lot as long as I have a phone and laptop, so I sometimes spent several days in a week with him.”
“But you lived in Denver?”
“Why are you asking this? Did he complain about this?”
Tom felt the icy wedge of her voice. He reached over and took her hand. “Never,” he said. “I just never thought of it before, and I wondered.”
“I was willing to move, to change jobs or companies, but Bob said it wasn’t fair—he’d just be deploying soon anyway. He didn’t want me to give up a good thing when in the end I was just going to sit alone, waiting, worrying…”
And Tom thought—he is a much better person than I am. If Tom fell in love and got married, he wouldn’t want his wife in another state. If he was newly married and about to deploy in a few months, he wouldn’t be happy about his wife not being around. Proving that he’d really screwed up by directing the conversation to her dead husband, she fell silent. He wasn’t sure what was worse, the silence or the conversation about drug trials and expense accounts. Finally he pulled into the square in Arcata and found a parking place.
“The only sushi place I know about is crappy and, I guessed, probably beneath your standards. How do you feel about Mediterranean?”
“Wonderful!” she said, beaming, quiet mood gone. And she held her place in the car until he came around and opened her door for her.
Darla seemed pleased with his choice of restaurant; she appeared to be back to her bright-eyed self. After they’d ordered drinks, an appetizer and their entrees, she reached across the table and took one of his hands. “Thank you, Tom, for being such a good host, good date.”
“I am?”
“You really are.” She laughed. “I look forward to these weekends with you. I hope you’re enjoying them as much as I am.”
“Totally.”
“I researched your orchard last week, in between other assignments for my class. It’s very well-known, you know.”
“Is it? Well-known to whom?”
“That’s what I love most about you—you’re so modest,” she said. “You have a laptop—search Cavanaugh Apples on Google sometime. The foodie sites love you. You’ll learn a lot about yourself.”
He lifted his eyebrows. “Is there anything I don’t know about myself that I should know?” he asked.
The drinks came, the stuffed grape leaves. And Darla laughed at him. “I’m not sure. Do you know you have forty acres and two hundred and fifty trees with roughly twenty-eight types of apples? You’ve been the primary supplier in the county for twenty years. And most of your forty acres are still