Still Me (Me Before You #3) - Jojo Moyes Page 0,51

a thing. Then he added, ‘Like, really tough.’

‘Right.’

‘It’s not just the sex, and the inevitable jealousy –’

‘We’re not jealous people.’

‘But he’s not going to be the first person you tell stuff to. The day-to-day bits and pieces. And that stuff is important.’

He proffered his beer and I took a swig, handing it back to him. ‘We did know it was going to be hard. I mean we talked about all this before I left. But you know what’s really bugging me?’

He dragged his gaze back from the screen. ‘Go on.’

‘Agnes knew how much I wanted to spend time with Sam. We’d talked about it. She was the one saying we had to be together, that we shouldn’t be apart, blah-blah-blah. And then she made me stay with her till the absolute last minute.’

‘That’s the job, Lou. They come first.’

‘But she knew how important it was to me.’

‘Maybe.’

‘She’s meant to be my friend.’

Nathan raised an eyebrow. ‘Lou. The Traynors were not normal employers. Will was not a normal employer. Neither are the Gopniks. These people may act nice, but ultimately you have to remember this is a power relationship. It’s a business transaction.’ He took a swig of his beer. ‘You know what happened to the Gopniks’ last social secretary? Agnes told Old Man Gopnik that she was talking about her behind her back, spreading secrets. So they sacked her. After twenty-two years. They sacked her.’

‘And was she?’

‘Was she what?’

‘Spreading secrets?’

‘I don’t know. Not the point, though, is it?’

I didn’t want to contradict him but to explain why Agnes and I were different would have meant betraying her. So I said nothing.

Nathan seemed about to say something, then changed his mind.

‘What?’

‘Look … nobody can have everything.’

‘What do you mean?’

‘This is a really great job, right? I mean, you might not think that tonight, but you’ve got a great situation in the heart of New York, a good wage and a decent employer. You get to go to all sorts of great places, and some occasional perks. They bought you a nearly-three-thousand-dollar ball dress, right? I got to go to the Bahamas with Mr G a couple of months ago. Five-star hotel, beachfront room, the lot. Just for a couple of hours’ work a day. So we’re lucky. But in the long term, the cost of all that might turn out to be a relationship with someone whose life is completely different and a million miles away. That’s the choice you make when you head out.’

I stared at him.

‘I just think you’ve got to be realistic about these things.’

‘You’re not really helping, Nathan.’

‘I’m being straight with you. And, hey, look on the bright side. I heard you did a great job today with the drawing. Mr G told me he was really impressed.’

‘They really liked it?’ I tried to suppress my glow of pleasure.

‘Aw, man. Seriously. Loved it. She’s going to knock those charity ladies dead.’

I leant against him, and he switched the volume back up. ‘Thanks, Nathan,’ I said, and opened my sushi. ‘You’re a mate.’

He grimaced slightly. ‘Yeah. That whole fishy thing. Any chance you could wait until you’re in your own room?’

I closed my sushi box. He was right. Nobody could have everything.

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To: MrandMrsBernardClarkyahoo

From: BusyBeegmail

Hey, Mum,

Sorry for the late reply. It’s quite busy here! Never a dull moment!

I’m glad you liked the pictures. Yes, the carpets are 100 per cent wool, some of the rugs are silk, the wood is definitely not veneer, and I asked Ilaria and they get their curtains dry-cleaned once a year while they spend a month in the Hamptons. The cleaners are very thorough but Ilaria does the kitchen floor every day herself because she doesn’t trust them.

Yes, Mrs Gopnik does have a walk-in shower and also a walk-in wardrobe in her dressing room. She is very fond of her dressing room and spends a lot of time in there on the phone to her mum in Poland. I didn’t have time to count the shoes like you asked but I’d say there are well over a hundred pairs. She has them stacked in boxes with pictures of them stuck to the front just so she knows which is which. When she gets a new pair it’s my job to take the picture. She has a camera just for her shoe boxes!

I’m glad the art course went well and the Better Communication for Couples class sounds grand, but you must tell Dad that it’s not to do with Bedroom Stuff. He’s sent me three