I burst into laughter. “Oh, that’s funny coming from someone whose last album had three songs about running away.”
Max gives a small, amused smile back. “I’ve never claimed I’m not a hypocrite.”
I’m not sure why I haven’t told him about Cricket. The timing just hasn’t felt right. I haven’t seen him again, but I’m still a mess of emotions about it. Our meeting wasn’t as bad as it could have been, but it was . . . unsettling. Cricket’s uncharacteristic ease compared to my uncharacteristic unease combined with the knowledge that I’ll be seeing him again. Soon.
He didn’t even mention the last time we saw each other. As if it didn’t matter. More likely, it didn’t affect him. I’ve spent so many dark nights trying to forget about Cricket. It doesn’t feel fair that he could have forgotten about me.
It’s too much to explain to Max.
And I don’t want him to think Cricket Bell means something to me that he doesn’t. That chapter of my life is over.
It’s over, unlike my conversation with Lindsey the next day, the same one we have every time we talk now. “I like Max,” I say. “He likes me. What’s wrong with that?”
“The law,” she says.
It’s the last Friday of our summer break, and we’re squished together on my tiny front porch. I’m spray-painting a pair of thrift-store boots, and she’s scoping out the lavender Victorian. Lindsey supports my relationship for the most part, but she’s relentless when it comes to this one sticking point.
“He’s a good guy,” I say. “And our relationship is what it is.”
“I’m not saying he isn’t a good guy, I’m merely reminding you that there could be consequences to dating him.” Her voice is calm and rational as her eyes perform a quick scan of the neighborhood before returning to the Bell house.
Lindsey never stops examining her surroundings. It’s what she does.
My best friend is pretty, bordering on plain. She wears practical clothing and keeps her appearance clean. She’s short, has braces, and has had the same haircut since the day we met. Black, shoulder length, tidy bangs. The only thing that might seem out of place is her well-worn, well-loved pair of red Chuck Taylors. Lindsey was wearing them the day she tripped a suspect being chased by the police on Market Street, and they’ve since become a permanent wardrobe fixture.
I laugh. Sometimes it’s the only option with her. “Consequences. Like happiness? Or love? You’re right, who’d want a thing like tha—”
“There he is,” she says.
“Max?” I swivel mid-spray, barely missing her sneakers in my excitement.
“Watch it, Ned.” She slides aside. “Not everyone wants shoes the color of a school bus.”
But she’s not talking about my boyfriend. My heart plummets to discover Cricket Bell waiting to cross the street.
“Oh, man.You got it on the porch.”
“What?” My attention jerks back. Sure enough, there’s an unsightly splotch of yellow beside the newspaper I’d spread out to protect the wood. I grab the wet rag I brought outside, for this very purpose, and scrub. I groan. “Nathan’s gonna kill me.”
“Still hasn’t forgiven you for dyeing the grout in his bathroom black?”
The splotch smears and grows larger. “What do you think?”
She’s staring at Cricket again. “Why didn’t you tell me he was so . . .”
“Tall?” I scour harder. “Unwanted?”
“. . . colorful.”
I look up. Cricket is striding across the street, his long arms swinging with each step. He’s wearing skinny mailmanesque pants with a red stripe down the side seam. They’re a tad short—purposely, I can tell—exposing matching red socks and pointy shoes. His movements suddenly become exaggerated, and he hums an unrecognizable tune. Cricket Bell knows he has an audience.
There’s a familiar clenching in my stomach.
“He’s coming over,” Lindsey says. “What do you want me to do? Kick him in the balls? I’ve been dying to kick him in the balls.”
“Nothing,” I hiss back. “I’ll handle it.”
“How?”