“Uh, no.” He’s squirming. “That’s not it. Not even a little bit. Not even at all.”
Consider my curiosity way more than piqued.
Josh sits down beside me. He sighs. I open the book, and it flips right to it. As if he looks at it. A lot.
I stare at the page. Pages. There are two drawings of me. In the first, my elbow is propped up against the table in Kismet. My head rests in my hand, and my hair tumbles loosely around my face. My eyes are closed in reverie. In the second, my head rests on my arms, which I’m using as a pillow. My hair spreads across the table in sweeping waves and curls. My lips are oh-so-slightly parted.
The pictures are…sexy. His brushstrokes are all curves.
Josh reaches over and turns the page.
There’s a third drawing.
This one is from memory. I’m standing in the rain. My hair is wet. My sundress is soaked. More curves – mine – are exposed. A giant garden rose floats behind my head like a halo, and I’m staring straight ahead at the viewer. The artist.
My heartbeat pounds in my ears. I look up at Josh, eyes wide.
“Kurt asked to see it,” he says. “When I thought you were dating. I thought he’d kick my ass.”
“My dress is rather clingy.”
Josh groans. “And now you think I’m a pervert.”
I smile. “Only if the rest of the book is like this.” I bump his shoulder softly as I proceed to thumb through it. At first I don’t realize what’s happening, but…I am looking for others. There are plenty of women, of all ages, inside – even some pretty ones – but as I continue to search, it’s clear that mine are unique. They’re the only drawings that look like that.
Josh bumps my shoulder in return. “Feel better? Or am I still on par with that Finnish photographer?”
“No.” I’m still smiling as I set down the book. “Definitely not. For sure not.”
“Good.” His voice is deeper, quieter.
I stare at him. He stares back. His fingers comb through my hair, and he cradles my head in his hands. My eyes close. I slide my own hands up the nape of his neck, and then further upward, nails raking against his scalp. Our mouths hover, a murmur apart. Our breathing is fast and warm. He parts my lips with his.
And then we clash together like the ravenous animals we are.
I climb onto his lap, needing closeness, pushing my h*ps against his. The skirt of my dress rides upward. I feel desperate, in agony. A ragged sound escapes from between his lips. Our kisses grow frantic, and his mouth is assertive and his hands are strong and—
“Ah hem.”
We bolt upright. Nate is standing in the doorway. I tumble off Josh, and he grabs the sketchbook and lunges into his desk chair, strategically planting the book on his lap. Every square inch of my skin is on fire.
“Have a nice day,” Nate says wearily. He trudges away.
I groan. “I can’t decide if the new rules suck more for him or for us.”
Josh bangs his forehead once against his desk. “Definitely us.” Before I can reply, his phone rings. He lifts his head to peek at the screen. And then he swears under his breath. “I have to take this, or she’ll never stop calling.” He picks it up. “Hey, Mom.”
Don’t think about the sketchbook. Do not think about what it is covering.
“Yep. Everything’s fine.” Pause. “I’m doing homework.” Pause. “No.” Pause. “No, I’m not.” Pause. “Yeah. I know.” Josh rolls his eyes as he tosses the sketchbook back to the bed, a twofold message that the mood is beyond repair, and I’m welcome to look at anything inside. “No. I know.” Their conversation continues like this for five minutes until he cuts her off. “Oh, man, fire drill. Gotta run, bye.” He hangs up. And then he slings his phone across the desk and drops his head into his hands.
I give him a moment before asking. “Fire drill?”
Josh lifts his head. “Usually I come up with a better excuse.” He stretches out a leg and taps one of my shoes with his. “Hard to think with you sitting there.”
I tap back. “I take it you aren’t close with your parents?”
“No. I’m not.”