Spiked by Love (Bellevue Bullies #6) - Toni Aleo Page 0,70

try to hide his fear, but I know it’s there. I know he isn’t lying to me; he wants this. He does, but he is scared. He doesn’t want to lose me, and I don’t want to lose him, but knowing he isn’t as confident in what we could have as I am scares the living shit out of me.

But this, us, is a chance I refuse not to take.

Chapter Nineteen

Asher

I always thought that it was so overdramatic and fake in movies when a couple started getting it on but then it cut to them falling back in bed all tired and spent, but now I realize maybe their sex is like Ally’s and mine. I fall back into my bed, unable to breathe, shaking all over, tired out of my mind, drained, and kicking myself for not doing this earlier with Ally.

I was a dumbass.

A really blind dumbass, and at the time, I had two good eyes.

Beside me, Ally gasps for breath along with me. I’m covered in sweat, throbbing in all the right places, and exhausted to the point where I’m going to need more than a drive home to regenerate. I’m gonna need a nap and maybe some sushi.

I draw in a deep breath as she cuddles into my side, gliding her fingers through the hair on my chest. Jasmine used to hate my chest hair, complained about it, but I didn’t care. I don’t mind it. I move my fingers up Ally’s back, loving the bumps of her spine and softness of her before nuzzling my nose in her hair.

“I lied,” I whisper, and she cuddles closer.

“About what?”

“Earlier, when I said you killed me, it was a lie. Because you really killed me that time.”

She giggles against my skin. “I’ve never enjoyed sucking dick like I just did.”

I can still feel her mouth on me. If my guy weren’t dead, he’d be up for another round, but nope, not right now. “Sushi. I need sushi.”

“Oh yeah, that sounds awesome.”

“Agreed. Though, I don’t want to move.”

“Me either.”

So, neither of us does. I kiss the top of her head, holding her close to me. She kisses the side of my pec, and I feel her lashes along my skin, letting me know her eyes are shut. I go back over what has transpired in the last four hours. It all seems so unreal, but Allison Titov is in my arms. I feel her naked body against mine. I can smell her, feel her on my lips, and still taste her.

I made love to my best friend, and I liked it. Immensely.

It almost made me forget that I am terrified of what could happen with her. Of the unknown. Of losing the one person who loves me inside and out and not because I put out. Since I have now put out, things will change drastically. Or at least, I think they will? Feelings can be felt. Real feelings. For each other.

Fuck me.

“Hey, Ally,” I ask against her head, and she sighs.

“I’m not getting up to order sushi. My phone is in my hoodie somewhere. You go find it.”

I grin against her hair. “No, not yet,” I say, kissing her. “But are we together now?”

She pauses. “Well, I’d hope so. I gave you the best head ever, so I thought that would lock you in.”

I laugh, cuddling her to me. “Yeah, it worked.” She smacks my chest as she laughs, and I smile against her hair. As much as it scares the living fuck out of me not knowing what will happen and if I’ll let myself fall for her, I’m not lying; she locked me down. “No. You locked me in way before that.”

“It was the volleyball net kiss, huh?”

I grin as I stare up at the ceiling. Man, that was a great kiss. “I think it might have been.”

“It was pretty awesome.”

“It was,” I agree, inhaling. “I don’t know how to act around you now.”

She scoffs. “Like yourself, dork.”

“But it’s different. I have to impress you.”

“Ash, shut up. You don’t. You already got me.”

“So? I have to keep you. Duh.” She grins against my skin. “It’s the truth. I can’t be acting all dorky and shit. I gotta be manly and buy you flowers—”

“Ew, no. I hate flowers, you know that.”

“I do,” I say, and damn, can it be that easy? I know every single thing about her, but she hasn’t ever been with a decent dude. All of them have been shit. “But the reason is