To Sir, with Love - Lauren Layne Page 0,39
with it. Oh wait—you’ll just tear it down.”
His expression has been light and easy all night, but he tenses at that, and I actually regret it. On one hand, I want to remember that he’s the enemy, why he’s here in the first place.
On the other hand… I’m sort of enjoying myself. Too much.
“How about a work truce?” he says. “Just for tonight, no discussion of business.”
“Done,” I say gratefully.
“So,” he says with a boyish grin. “My turn for the invasive personal questions. How are things with your guy? Or girl?”
“Guy. And they’re…” I smile a little wistfully as I try to explain the strange combination of feelings I get when I think of Sir. The butterflies. The old-fashioned romance of it all. The giddiness when I have a new message.
The frustration that he’s not real.
“Ah,” Sebastian says. His voice is just slightly curt, and I look up in question.
“It’s like that,” he says.
“Like what?”
“The dopey-in-love thing.”
“Dopey?” I repeat, outraged.
“Not dopey,” he amends quickly. “It’s just clear he’s important to you.”
“Yes. He is.”
“You said last time that it was complicated. What’s complicated about it? He doesn’t feel the same?”
I give him an annoyed look. “Love that that’s your first assumption. But actually… I don’t really know how he feels.”
“You could ask him,” he says, holding out his glass for Robyn to fill. I do the same, ignoring the blatantly curious look she gives us before moving away.
“Oh really? I could ask him?” I say sarcastically, with no heat.
“I’m just saying, men aren’t exactly known for their emotive skills in this area.”
“True. I should. It’s just…” I wrinkle my nose in befuddlement. “Why am I talking about this with you? I haven’t talked about him this much with anyone.”
“It’s just what?” he presses, turning and pushing the plate out of the way, leaning against the counter so he’s facing me.
“What if I’m disappointed?” I say it quickly, to get the words out for the first time ever. To him, of all people. Not to Rachel, or Keva, or Lily, or May, but to Sebastian Andrews.
“What do you mean?”
I blow out a breath, gathering my thoughts. “It’s hard to explain. But I’ve built this guy up so much in my head, and I think maybe the reason I haven’t pushed to move forward is that I’m worried fantasy won’t match reality.” I wince. “You think I’m an idiot.”
“I don’t,” he says quietly, looking down at his glass. “I think I understand it more than you think.”
“Okay, so here’s another fear,” I say, the bubbly apparently starting to go to my head. “And brace yourself, because this is high school–crush territory, but… what if he doesn’t like me as much as I like him?”
Sebastian nods slowly. “I get that too. It’s not high school territory. It’s human territory. Nobody wants to learn they’re the only one feeling things.”
Our eyes lock for a moment that feels… important, somehow.
We both look away.
“So, how did you and Mr. Complicated meet?” he asks as he accepts the basket of ingredients for the crab cake from Josh. “Blind date? Mutual friend? Dating app?”
Oh, you know, we haven’t actually met.
I may be sharing things with this man that I haven’t with anyone else, but I draw the line at that humiliating little tidbit.
“You know,” I say slowly as we begin unloading panko, eggs, and crab meat from the basket, “until just a couple weeks ago, I was so sure there was only one right person for everyone and that my guy would find me, Princess Jasmine–style. Or I’d find him, Little Mermaid–style.”
He lifts his eyebrows. “You think you’re going to rescue your soul mate from a shipwreck?”
I grin. “Mr. Andrews! Your knowledge of Disney impresses me.”
“I try.” He inspects a lemon, and I hope he doesn’t plan to slaughter it like he did the last one. Aqua eyes cut back to mine. “And you’ve found him? Or he you?”
“Well, that’s the thing—it feels like it, but I don’t want to be wrong.” I pick up a red bell pepper and sniff it distractedly, then turn to him. “You ever feel completely convinced you’re supposed to be with someone but have no idea how to go about it?”
“Actually. Yes. Twice,” he admits. “You?”
“Yeah.” My voice is quiet now, nearly a whisper. “Twice.”
His eyes darken in what seems to be irritation or… jealousy?
Keva starts explaining the art of the crab cake, and I quickly turn away from Sebastian and walk to the front table to watch the demonstration.
Partially because I need