she paused in front of the portrait of her mother that hung over the sideboard. Mrs. Philomena “Phillie” Early was beautiful in the Grace Kelly kind of standard, a platinum blonde with cheekbones like a thoroughbred.
“Jo.”
She looked over her shoulder. Her father had come to stand in the archway of the breakfast room, his napkin in his hand, his thin fingers worrying the damask.
“Forgive me. I have always found that I handle this subject badly. One feels a sense of failure that one could not provide one’s wife with a child. I’m sure you understand this.”
“I’m sorry,” Jo said because she felt like she had to.
“I can give you the name of our attorney at the time. I don’t believe he is in practice anymore, but he must have known the real name of the woman as he processed the paperwork with the diocese. Even if whatever hospital she was in gave her a pseudonym for the birth, legally, she would have had to use her given name to relinquish parental rights. Perhaps that would help you?”
“But she died.”
“Not as far as we were told.”
Jo recoiled, unsure what story to believe. But then she refocused. “I would like that contact information, please.”
Her father nodded and walked over. “It will be in my records in the study.”
Jo followed him out across the polished foyer and into a wood-paneled room that had always reminded her of a jewelry box. Over at the desk, her father leaned down low.
“You have your own file,” he said.
As if she were a car and he were keeping her maintenance records so the warranty held up.
Extracting a thick portfolio tied with a band, he sat down as he dove into the paperwork, and she wondered how it was so voluminous.
“I saved all of your school reports and test scores,” he said as if he read her mind.
Why, she wanted to ask. Then again, maybe he thought he might need them if he sought to return her to the hospital she had been born in.
Watching his spindly fingers pick through the pages he had retained, she reflected on how frail he seemed, his thin body bent, his narrow shoulders hunched. For some reason, his physical weakness made her think about all of the propriety he always insisted upon, and how his protocols had defined her childhood and early adulthood, presented to her as a test of morality or worthiness she had to pass. Funny—now, she saw all of the arbitrary rules as the defense mechanisms of a feeble and conflict-averse man, one who had muddled through life with a remarkable lack of personal distinction for all the historical distinction of his pedigree.
“Here,” he said. “His name and number.”
Her father held out a business card and Jo took it. Robert J. Temple, Esq. With a downtown Philadelphia address and an original 215 area code. No firm name listed.
Putting the stiff little rectangle on the leather blotter, she got her phone out and snapped a photo of it.
“Thank you,” she said as she handed the thing back.
“You are welcome.”
Jo felt as though she had to wait as the business card went back into the portfolio, and the flap was battened down once again with the band. Her father then returned the collection of documents to the lower drawer and got to his feet. As if the business meeting were over.
“Do give Mother my regards,” Jo said.
Now, the man smiled. “Oh, I most certainly will. And she will return them to you, I’m sure.”
He was pleased because that was an appropriate thing to say and do. Which would provide him with an appropriate thing to communicate to his wife when the subject of the unannounced visit came up.
“Oh, do you need a ride somewhere?” Chance Early asked. “I didn’t see a car in the drive.”
“No, I’ll get a Lyft.”
“From whom? Tom can take you where you need to go.”
Of course the man had never heard of Lyft or Uber.
“A taxi, I mean.” She one-strapped her backpack. “I’m just going to wait on the front step after I call for it. I will enjoy the fresh air and sunshine.”
The relief on her father’s face wasn’t something he bothered to hide. “Very well. It has been lovely to see you again, Josephine. I look forward to our next meeting.”
He stuck his hand out.
Jo shook what she was offered, finding his palm bone dry and skeletal. “Thank you. I’ll see myself out so that your breakfast is not unduly interrupted.”