and me and someone from the Trust—Julian will do, he’s harmless enough—”
“You’re going too fast. You’re not listening to me. That’s too soon. Anything like that will scare her. We need to move slowly.”
“Well, it’s important the Trust knows—”
“No, not yet. Maybe this was a one-off. Let’s wait. Let’s not make any announcements. Not just yet.”
Diomedes nodded, taking this in. His hand reached for my shoulder and gripped it. “Well done. I’m proud of you.”
I felt a small flicker of pride—a son congratulated by his father. I was conscious of my desire to please Diomedes, justify his faith in me and make him proud. I felt a little emotional. I lit a cigarette to disguise it. “What now?”
“Now you keep going. Keep working with Alicia.”
“And if Stephanie finds out?”
“Forget Stephanie—leave her to me. You focus on Alicia.”
And so I did.
* * *
During our next session, Alicia and I talked nonstop. Or rather, Alicia talked and I listened. Listening to Alicia was an unfamiliar and somewhat disconcerting experience, after so much silence. She spoke hesitantly at first, tentatively—trying to walk on legs that hadn’t been used in a while. She soon found her feet, picking up speed and agility, tripping through sentences as if she had never been silent, which in a way, she hadn’t.
When the session ended, I went to my office. I sat at the desk, transcribing what had been said while it was still fresh in my mind. I wrote down everything, word for word, capturing it as precisely and accurately as possible.
As you will see, it’s an incredible story—of that there is no doubt.
Whether you believe it or not is up to you.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
ALICIA SAT IN THE CHAIR opposite me in the therapy room.
“Before we begin, I have some questions for you. A few things I’d like to clarify…”
No reply. Alicia looked at me with that unreadable look of hers.
“Specifically, I want to understand your silence. I want to know why you refused to speak.”
Alicia seemed disappointed by the question. She turned and looked out the window.
We sat like that in silence for a minute or so. I tried to contain the suspense I was feeling. Had the breakthrough been temporary? Would we now go on as before? I couldn’t let that happen.
“Alicia. I know it’s difficult. But once you start talking to me, you’ll find it easier, I promise.”
No response.
“Try. Please. Don’t give up when you’ve made such progress. Keep going. Tell me … tell me why you wouldn’t speak.”
Alicia turned back and stared at me with a chilly gaze. She spoke in a low voice:
“Nothing … nothing to say.”
“I’m not sure I believe that. I think there was too much too say.”
A pause. A shrug. “Perhaps. Perhaps … you’re right.”
“Go on.”
She hesitated. “At first, when Gabriel … when he was dead—I couldn’t, I tried … but I couldn’t … talk. I opened my mouth—but no sound came out. Like in a dream … where you try to scream … but can’t.”
“You were in a state of shock. But over the next few days, you must have found your voice returning to you…?”
“By then … it seemed pointless. It was too late.”
“Too late? To speak in your defense?”
Alicia held me in her gaze, a cryptic smile on her lips. She didn’t speak.
“Tell me why you started talking again.”
“You know the answer.”
“Do I?”
“Because of you.”
“Me?” I looked at her with surprise.
“Because you came here.”
“And that made a difference?”
“All the difference—it made … all the difference.” Alicia lowered her voice and stared at me, unblinking. “I want you to understand—what happened to me. What it felt like. It’s important … you understand.”
“I want to understand. That’s why you gave me the diary, isn’t it? Because you want me to understand. It seems to me the people who mattered most to you didn’t believe your story about the man. Perhaps you’re wondering … if I believe you.”
“You believe me.” This was not a question but a simple statement of fact.
I nodded. “Yes, I believe you. So why don’t we start there? The last diary entry you wrote described the man breaking into the house. What happened then?”
“Nothing.”
“Nothing?”
She shook her head. “It wasn’t him.”
“It wasn’t? Then who was it?”
“It was Jean-Felix. He wanted—he had come to talk about the exhibition.”
“Judging by your diary, it doesn’t seem you were in the right state of mind for visitors.”
Alicia acknowledged this with a shrug.
“Did he stay long?”
“No. I asked him to leave. He didn’t want to—he was upset. He shouted at me a