find where to search for the cause. Now Zdorab and Issib and I have seen the place. There has been damage to my memory - forty million years of atomic decay and cosmic radiation has scarred me. The redundancy of my systems has compensated for most of it, but not for damage within primitive systems that I couldn't even examine because they were hidden from me. I have lost the ability to control my robots. They were not meant to last this long, even in a place without oxygen. My robots were reporting to me that they had completed all safety checks on the systems inside the barrier, but when I tried to open the perimeter the system refused because the safety checks had not been completed. So I initiated the safety checks again, and the robots again reported that all was complete, and on and on. And I couldn't discover the loop because all of this was at the level of reflex to me - like the beating of your heart is to you. No, even less obvious. More like the production of hormones by the glands inside your body.)
"What would have happened if you could have broken out of the loop?" asked Nafai.
(If I could have found myself, I would have recognized the problem and brought you here at once.)
"You mean you could have shut down the barrier?"
(I wouldn't have needed to. Shutting it down was within your power all along. That's what the Index was for.)
"The Index!"
(If you had brought the Index with you, you would have met no resistance at any point. No mental aversion, and when you touched the Index to the physical barrier it would have gradually dissolved itself - avoiding the winds, which were not helpful, since they stirred dust into the air.)
"But you never told us the Index could do that."
(I didn't know it myself. I couldn't know it. All I knew was that whoever was coming to the starships would have to have the Index. Then, when the safety checks were completed, the perimeter system would have opened everything up to me and I would have understood what was needed and could have told you what you needed to do.)
"So my nearly suffocating myself to death and then getting bruised up in the windstorm wasn't a stupid waste of perfectly good panic."
(Forcing your way in here was the only way I would ever have broken out of my loop. I have read the memory of the perimeter system and I am delighted at the way you used the baboons to draw you through.)
"Didn't you show me that in my dream? That I needed to follow a baboon through the barrier?"
(Dream? Oh, I remember now, you dreamed. No, that wasn't from me.)
"From the Keeper, then?"
(Why must you look for an outside source? Don't you think your own unconscious mind is capable of giving you a true dream now and then? Aren't you willing to admit to yourself that perhaps it was your own mind that solved this problem?)
Nafai couldn't keep himself from laughing in delight. "I did it, then!"
(You did it. But you aren't done. Come to me, Nafai. I have work for you to do, and tools for you to do it with.)
Nafai strode down the hill into the valley of Vusadka. The place of disembarkation. The place where human feet had first touched the soil of Harmony, and where those first settlers had placed the computer that would protect their children from self-destruction for so many years that to them it must have seemed the protection would be forever.
But it would not be forever. It was dying already. And now Nafai was walking among the towers of the starships, the first human being to tread in their footsteps since they built this place. Whatever the Oversoul meant for him to do now, he would do it, and when it was done, human beings would return again to Earth.
TEN - SHIPMASTER
Volemak and Rasa called the community together the moment Zdorab and Issib finished reporting what they had learned from the Index. It had been a long time since a meeting had been called without Elemak knowing in advance what it was about. It worried him. At some level it frightened him, but since he could not live with the idea of fear, he interpreted it as anger. He was angry that a meeting was called without his knowledge, without Father having sought his advice in advance. It suggested to him that