Not any more.
Marriage was a losing venture for a woman. Her ex-husband had taught her well that guys didn't want a wife so much as a maid who could provide them with sex on tap.
An artist like her, Jerry Gagne had seemed the perfect match. They had met in art school and she had fallen in love with the moody, mysterious goth chicness of him.
At that time in her life, she had loved him zealously and couldn't imagine a day without him in it.
She thought they were two comfortable peas who could carve out a pod that would last them for the rest of their lives. She'd assumed Jerry would understand her need to create and that he would respect her and give her the room she needed to grow as an artist.
What Jerry had wanted was for her to take care of him while he grew as an artist. Her needs and desires had always taken a backseat to his.
Their marriage had lasted two years, four months, and twenty-two days.
Not all of it had been bad. Part of her still loved him. She'd enjoyed having company and someone to share her life with, but she didn't want to go back to being the one who was responsible for where someone else put his socks-she could barely remember where she put her own socks. Dropping her projects and going to the store because someone forgot to get the eggs that he had to have for his homemade paints.
It was always her plans that changed. Her stuff that could wait.
Jerry had never made any kind of concession to her.
She didn't want to lose herself to a man again. She wanted her own life. Her own career.
Talon was a great guy, but he struck her as a creature like herself. A loner who valued his privacy. They had had a great time so far, but she was sure they weren't compatible.
She was someone who actually liked to get up and paint in the daylight. Talon stayed up all night long. She loved tofu and granola. He loved junk food and coffee.
She and Jerry had kept the same schedule, had all the same likes, and look what had happened. If they couldn't make a go of it, then it certainly didn't bode well for any kind of real relationship with Talon.
No, she needed to get back to her life.
As soon as he got up and they ate, she was going to tell him to take her home.
Talon sighed in his sleep. It had been a long time since he had last dreamt of his wife. He hadn't dared. Thoughts of Nynia had always had the ability to tear his heart out.
But today, she was there with him. There in his dreams where they could be together.
His throat tight, he watched her sitting before his hearth, her belly distended with his child while she sewed clothes for the baby. Even after five years of marriage and a lifetime of friendship, she was able to stir his blood and make his heart swell with love.
Growing up under his uncle's scornful eye and the disdain of the clan, he had only found her to give him comfort. She alone had made him feel loved.
He listened to her hum the same lullaby his mother had once sung to him when he was a very small child.
Gods, how he needed her. Now more than ever before. He was weary of fighting, weary of the demands his people had placed upon him since the death of his uncle.
Weary of hearing the whispers about his mother and father.
He was a young man, but tonight he felt ancient. And cold.
Until he looked at Nynia. She warmed him deep inside and made everything better.
How he loved her for it.
Moving forward, he sank down in front of her chair and placed his head in her lap. He wrapped his arms around her as he was wont to do and felt the baby kick his arm in protest.
"You've returned," she said gently, brushing her hand through his hair.
He didn't speak. He couldn't. Normally he would have bathed the blood from his armor and body before he sought her out, but the grief of the day was still too raw in his heart.
He needed to feel her gentle, soothing touch on his body, needed to know that for the moment she was safe and still with him.