rest of the opiate. He took on himself the blame for the error. To save both his father's practice and Anna's future, Justinian had placated the irate and wretched patient by promising to give up all medical studies himself, and the man had accepted and agreed to remain silent as long as Justinian kept his word.
He had kept it. He had turned instead to trade, at which he had proved both gifted and successful. But it was not medicine!
Her brother had never once chided Anna for her error or its cost to him, nor had he spoken of it in front of their father. Justinian had said his decision to leave study and turn to business was simply a personal choice. To his mind, Anna was the better physician. Their mother was bitterly disappointed, but their father had said nothing.
Shame still burned inside Anna like acid. She had begged Justinian to tell the truth and allow her to carry her own guilt, but he had warned her that the patient was sworn to silence only on the conditions now agreed. If she now went to him, it would ruin her career without restoring his, and it might also bring their father down. A second story now would seem devious at best, at worst doubly incompetent. She'd known that was true, and for her father's sake she had said nothing. She never knew how much he had known or guessed of the truth.
Her mistake had cost Justinian his life in medicine. He had earned the right to ask almost anything of her, yet beyond her marriage to Eustathius-which he had believed at the time to be for her happiness and security-he had sought nothing. Anything she could do now to clear his name and effect his release was little enough, and she had no shadow of hesitation.
Chapter 19-20
Nineteen
ANNA WAS AWARE OF THE DANGERS OF ASKING ABOUT religious contention in a climate already riven with differences and a sense of impending danger. Yet the answer as to who had killed Bessarion was not going to fall into her hands without her actively seeking it.
What did Constantine know? That seemed the best place to begin.
He was in his room by the courtyard with the summer sun bright on the water and the stones beyond the arches, and the shadows cool inside. He looked almost fully recovered from his illness.
"What can I do for you, Anastasius?" he asked.
"I have been thinking how you wear yourself out in helping the poor and those in trouble of heart or conscience..." she began.
He smiled, his shoulders easing as if he had expected something more critical from her.
"My medical practice is sufficiently established to provide for the needs of my household," she continued. "I would like to offer some of my time to caring for those who cannot pay... with your guidance as to who is the most in need." She hesitated only a moment. "Perhaps you would like me with you, so I could act both wisely and without delay?"
His eyes widened and his face filled with pleasure. "That is a truly noble desire, and I accept. We will begin straightaway-tomorrow. I was discouraged, uncertain what next to do for the best, but God has answered my prayers in you, Anastasius."
Surprised and pleased by the vehemence of his response, she found herself smiling. "What ailments will we be most likely to find, so I can bring the best herbs?"
"Hunger and fear," he replied ruefully. "But we will also find diseases of the lungs and of the stomach, and no doubt of the skin, from poverty, insect infestations, and dirt. Bring what you can."
"I'll be here," she promised.
She went with Constantine at least two days in every week. They traveled the poorer areas down by the docksides, the back streets, narrow and cramped. There were so many sick, especially during the summer heat when there was little rain to clear the gutters and flies swarmed everywhere. It was a difficult course to steer between the spiritual ailments and the bodily ones. It was even more so with Constantine so close and the certainty that all she said to a patient could be repeated back to him.
Often a patient would say to her, "I've repented, why aren't I getting better?"
"You are," she would reply. "But you must also take the medicine. It will help." Then she tried to bring back to her memory all the appropriate saints to pray to for the specific illness and realized in doing