Secrets Worth Keeping (Finding my Home #2)- Nikita Parmenter Page 0,36
is sore, damn it.
“What’re you thinking so hard about, Baby?” Rafe asks softly, well as softly as his gravelly voice gets.
“I need to wash but showering is going to hurt like a bitch.”
“Why don’t you have a bath then?” Riot asks.
“Why didn’t I think of that?” I grin, before smirking wickedly. “Come here” I demand and he chuckles before moving up the bed to me, I kiss him thoroughly and the guys chuckle.
“What was that for?” he asks when we break apart.
“Just because you’re awesome. Can someone help me up please? Everything is starting to hurt again.”
Trick frowns as he gently helps me out of the middle of the bed, how I always end up in the middle I don’t know, I’m going to have to make a conscious effort to sit elsewhere, seems unfair that Jensen is always the one lying on me. I want to lie on him too, it’s only fair. Trick gently pulls me to my feet and then tugs me towards him. Wrapping his arms around my waist as looks down at me with concern.
“Can I get you anything Sweetheart?”
“My cream please?”
He nods and kisses me gently before searching for my cream, I go into my closet and grab some pyjamas and clean underwear before making my way to the bathroom and pulling a towel out of the cabinet, I run the bath, which thankfully fills up quickly and sink under the bubbles.
As the bathroom quiets, I realise that this is the first time I have had a bath in a really long time, and I feel really fucking vulnerable. I try and breathe deeply, but my anxiety is starting to overtake me. It would be ridiculous to get one of the guys to sit with me, right? I mean that really would be crossing a line.
Images start to fill my vision, dirty brutish men forcing their way into the bathroom, blood on my hands as I slice to get away, Jeremy’s face quickly follows and my mind taunts me with his words and what would’ve been happening now if the guys hadn’t come for me.
I’m gasping for breath unable to get enough air in my lungs as a whimper forces it’s way past my lips as the images in my mind continue to torment me.
“Ever?” Trick’s concerned voice floats through the door and lets me swim up briefly from the pit of panic I feel like I'm drowning in. Fuck crossing a line right now, I’m going to pass out and in a bath tub that means death. My vision spots and I manage one word.
“Help” I gasp.
He obviously hear's me since within the next second the door is booted open, which should terrify me but I know it’s Trick. He rushes forwards, grabbing a towel as there’s a scramble of footsteps, the others obviously having heard the noise when the door broke. Trick drapes the towel around me in the bath and I manage to kneel so my boobs are pressed against the edge of the bath my forearms resting on the side as I gasp for breath my vision still spotty and the images still rolling on repeat. Trick crouches by the edge of the bath and gently grabs my face in his hands. His touch grounding me in the here and now.
“Whats going on?” Jensen demands from behind Trick his eyes wild, his darkness swirling in their green depths.
“She’s having a panic attack” Trick tells them, he rests his forehead against mine and locks eyes with me.
I couldn’t look away if I tried, his grey gaze easily ensnaring mine. The others fall silent as they crouch low, making themselves as small as possible like they had to do when I had the panic attack the first time. The thought makes me smile, silly boys I know them, on a soul deep level, I know they would never hurt me. I realise that I’ve been subconsciously breathing in time with Trick.
“There she is, are you ok now Sweetheart?”
“I’m ok, embarrassed but ok” I say softly.
“Nothing to be embarrassed about Firecracker, all of us either get panic attacks or help the others deal with them” Luc reassures me as he stands.
“You’re sure you’re ok?” Cash asks, concerned.
“Yes” I say smiling softly.
“We’ll leave you to it then” Riot says scanning me worriedly.
The guys all trail after him but as Trick starts to get up I grab hold his hand making him wet.
“I know this weird and I won’t get upset if you don’t but