Secret Admirer - D.J. Jamison Page 0,58

wouldn’t want to be at odds with him. You’ve been friends a long time, and what we have is new. I’d understand if it couldn’t compete.”

I pulled his hand down. “Benji, I love you.”

The words just flew out without permission. His eyes widened.

“It’s too soon to say that,” I said with an awkward chuckle, “but I do, and I’ve had a lot of time to think about how Jeremy might react and to decide that this, what we have, is worth it. But I know you’ve had less time to—”

Benji smothered my words in a kiss, and my arms came up around him.

“I’ll tell him,” Benji said. “I promise.”

“Okay.”

“I kind of want to do it in person, though. He’ll be home for Thanksgiving next week, and so will my parents.”

I nodded, trying not to think about how much I’d miss Benji while he was gone. We’d been close before we started dating, but we’d been in each other’s pockets, hooking up just about every day, since. It was going to be a lonely holiday.

“That could work.”

“I was thinking, maybe…” He trailed off, biting his lower lip. He was nearly irresistible to me when he did that.

I tugged his lip free, kissing him. “What is it?”

“Come home with me?”

My heart stuttered.

“I love you too, Ace. I should have said that right away. I’ve loved you longer than you can possibly imagine.”

“You might be confusing that with infatuation.”

He slapped my arm. “Since getting to know you this fall, as a real person and not just my brother’s friend, my feelings have only gotten stronger. They’re real. I know it’s a little fast for a meet-the-parents, but we’re in a unique situation here.”

Wasn’t that the truth?

Benji took a deep breath, eyes hopeful. “I’d really like you to come home, so we can tell them together, like a real couple.”

That was a fair request. I’d intended to let him tell Jeremy because he’d asked for that, but if he was going to be facing his whole family, it wasn’t fair to leave all the burden on his shoulders.

“Okay.”

“I know you don’t like coming back,” he added, talking fast, “because of your family, but you don’t have to see them. And we can leave super soon if things don’t go well, but I know Mom is going to be cool. And … and…”

“Benji,” I cut in, “I said okay.”

He paused, looking surprised. “Really? You’ll come home with me?”

“If you’re sure you’re ready to unleash me on your whole family,” I joked.

“Oh, please, they already love you,” Benji said. Looking shy, he added, “They might have a little trouble believing it at first.”

“Yeah, I guess this means coming out as bi.”

He tensed. “Oh, shoot, I didn’t even think about how you felt about that. If you’re not ready…”

I kissed him. “Benji, it’s okay. I’m not afraid to tell people. I might have to do some explaining, especially to Jeremy, but I’m ready. More than ready if it means I get to have you.”

He melted into my arms. “I still can’t believe this is real.”

“I can,” I murmured into his hair.

His body, warm against mine, was real. His heart beating in sync with mine. His smiles, which lit up my life.

Every day with him in it felt more alive, more real than any that had come before. Maybe I was sappy, just a romantic who was rushing in like a fool.

But right now? He was the real love of my life.

Tipping his chin up, I kissed him slowly, thoroughly, letting the emotions flow from me to him. I didn’t hurry, even when he grew hard and rocked against me. Even when my own cock ached. I kissed him tenderly, undressed him slowly, and worshipped his body with my lips and tongue.

I brushed my lips over pale, soft skin. Nibbled on rosy nipples. Sucked the moist tip of his cock until he was desperate with need, trying to thrust deeper. I kept him on edge, kept him aroused and awaiting until I pushed two fingers inside. Then I took him to the back of my throat and watched him fall apart.

And when I was done, he tore my jeans open, fell upon me eagerly, and unraveled me in half the time. Tipping my head back, groaning as his hot, wet mouth worked me over, the words played through my mind again and again, until I was mumbling them out loud.

“Love you. Fuck, I love you. Benji, I … I’m gonna come.”

Benji took me deeper, sucking me harder instead