but showering in front of all these people was another slash at my comfort. At my sense of safety. How arrogantly I had acted at HDF, thinking I was so bold and comfortable with my body around others. I had been with my small safe group of friends.
“Come on,” the same guard yelled. “You know the drill. Undress. Clean. And get out for the next. No funny business.”
A few guards were stationed around the room, not hiding their glee at watching the prisoners disrobe. A giant laundry cart sat near the open showers along the wall, ones I’d be washing and mending later. A table was set up with clean uniforms, underwear, and towels with your number on display on the top of the pile.
Grabbing my kit, I watched as veteran prisoners leaped at the chance to be first. Some shared a showerhead.
“Come on, fish.” A guard came up behind me, tugging at my soiled top. His nasal voice sounded vaguely familiar, reminding me of the night Tess and her group beat me up. “Can’t be shy or modest here. Strip!”
My nose flared as I inhaled a shaky breath, my throat closing.
“Don’t you love when they are fresh and new? Scared and horrified?” Another guard chuckled. “Never lasts long, but most of the time, neither do they.”
Don’t cry. Don’t cry.
“Now!” the first guard bellowed. Getting a better grip, he ripped my shirt over my head, along with my sports bra. Ice filled my bones, my eyes burning as the violation poured down on me. Laughter from the prisoners at seeing me humiliated resounded in my ears.
“You want me to do the rest?” The guard rubbed his crotch roughly into my backside, tugging at my thin pants, his hand snaking down them. “I have no problem stripping you naked while everyone watches.” He motioned out to the room, all eyes on me, burning into my bare skin.
Unable to respond, I shakily got undressed, tossing the rest of my clothes in the bin. My jaw clenched so hard to keep from crying, and it sent sharp pains up my face as I tugged off my underwear.
“You can join me, fish.” Some called to me as I strode to a shower, keeping my head level and my gaze on the cascading water, my kit in my hands. The water hit my skin like needles, the cool temperature tensing my already taut muscles, and I gasped and cried out as it burned against my tender flesh.
Two people moved in next to me, and within seconds their grunts pulled my attention. Both figures faced the wall. A gorgeous male fae, his hands on the hips of the woman in front of him, pounded into her while his eyes remained fixed on me. His brown eyes glinted when our gazes met, and he thrust into the female harder.
My body reacted. It was human nature after all, but a swirl of disgust and heat passed over me. The spark of need throbbed between my thighs, to feel a moment of bliss for one second here.
“Yeah, you want me to fuck you next?” His gaze dragged down me, stopping on my breasts, my nipples hardening. “This turn you on, fish?”
“You can join us.” The woman’s eyes slid to me, her teeth biting into her lip, clearly enjoying that I was watching.
I turned away, though I could not block out their laughs and slapping noises. My other view was of two fae males going at it in the U-shaped stall. None of the guards were stopping any of them, as though this was their personal live porno.
I pulled out my shampoo, wanting to wash and get out quickly. Scrubbing my body and hair, the two next to me finally finished and left, allowing the next person to move in.
“Well, well, if it isn’t the fish without her protector.” A woman’s voice came behind me. “Where’s your wife, little fish?”
Dread filled my gut as I slowly cranked my head over my shoulder.
Tess, Mio, and Dee. The three bitches of death block B stood behind me.
Their nudity seemed to shield them, while mine left me feeling vulnerable.
“What will you do without your girlfriend?” Tess crossed her arms over her saggy tits. Her skin was wrinkled and old.
My gaze darted over her shoulder to the guards. They stayed in position, either not concerned with us or too busy watching people have sex.
“Can I tell you how much I love having your blanket?” Tess smirked. “I use it to wipe my ass after