Role Play - Alison Hendricks Page 0,51

mine and I searched his eyes for the answer. I could already tell he didn't exactly know it himself.

"You're right," he said after a long delay. "I wasn't trying to mess up your head or your heart. I just..."

He didn't seem able to finish that, so I exposed a truth that my heart desperately wanted to cling to. Something I had only just begun to parse myself.

"Thing is... you're a great guy, Reuben. You're funny, smart, incredibly caring. I know I could fall for a guy like that, if I'm given any indication he might... want the same things."

"What if he's not sure what he wants?" Reuben asked, taking a step closer. His voice was low and quiet. "What if he thought he knew, but now he's thinking he wants those things he gave up on."

Another step. Our chests were practically touching and I wondered if he could hear the racing, stuttered thuds of my heart.

"Truth is, I could fall for a guy like you, too," he practically whispered, his lips a breath away from mine.

"So what are you saying?" I felt dizzy, so compelled to just sway into his arms and stop talking.

But I needed the answer.

"I'm saying I don't want this to be casual anymore."

My heart swelled instantly at that, a sharp, delicious ache lancing through it as he kissed me, slow and deep. His touches were reverent as he undressed me and led me to the bedroom. His lips felt like heaven against my bare skin.

And when he entered me later, rocking into me, filling me slowly, it felt different than before. Less a frenzy for the sake of getting off, and more an expression of something deeper.

That was even more true when later that night, after we'd showered and slept for a few hours, he woke me with his lips around my cock, then slipped a condom on me once I was hard and proceeded to ride me slowly.

We didn't really rest until the early hours of the morning, just before the sun came up. Reuben slept with an arm draped around me as I cuddled into his chest, inhaling the now familiar scent of his skin.

Things had definitely changed, and I was all too ready to explore this new stage of my relationship with Reuben.

21

Reuben

I wasn't prepared for just how much I'd like having a boyfriend again.

Kayden was a bad example. Probably the worst I could think of. Dating Elliot, being officially with him was more like the relationships I'd had when I was younger. Not the naivety or the immaturity of it, but the sense of wonder and exploration. That flutter in my chest every time I thought of him, or how my face hurt from smiling so damn much when I spoke to him.

It was what my sister would've called puppy love, but I couldn't help thinking it was turning into something more than that.

After just a few weeks of dating, we'd become so in sync with each other that we barely had to communicate with words. If we were out getting dinner, I knew exactly what he was going to order, and he knew the same for me. Sitting on the couch, I could tell the exact moment when he wanted me to rake my nails gently over his scalp, and he knew just when I wanted him to massage my neck and shoulders.

When it came to the bedroom, everything was turned up to eleven. I'd never been so in tune with a partner, and I'd never wanted my role in sex to be as malleable as it was with Elliot. A lot of the time I topped, but more and more I craved the feeling of him inside of me. He was learning to explore his dominant side, and while he definitely wouldn't ever go full "daddy dom," he sure as hell made me weak in the knees when he told me once to get on my knees, then proceeded to feed me his cock until I was practically gagging on it.

Of course he'd gotten a little self-conscious after and had asked me if that was too much. I just responded by kissing down his body, then turning him around and putting in thorough work on his ass before I fucked him.

It wasn't always like that, though. Now that I wasn't trying to fight my feelings, I was okay with letting my guard down and being a little... softer. Sometimes we made love for hours, just lying in bed, exploring each