Rocking His Fake World (Love You Forever #3) - Alexis Winter Page 0,29
and we fall through the coats until her back hits the wall.
My hands are working her dress up her thighs and her hands are between us, freeing me from my pants. I push her panties to the side and position myself between her legs. Without warning, I push into her, claiming her as mine once again. She lets out a whimper and bites down on my lower lip. My hands squeeze her thighs even more tightly until I can feel her flesh bubbling up between each of my fingers as I’m pounding into her. She digs her nails into my back and calls out my name, only making me move faster and harder. At this pace, it doesn’t take either of us very long to shatter. The moment I regain my composure, I feel guilty and angry at myself for giving in to her. We’re staying apart for a reason. She knows that. I know that. But when we’re together, something happens and we’re drawn to each other. Something like that is hard to fight.
I set her on her feet and fasten my pants as she straightens her dress. “How do you feel?” I ask, wondering if she’s as confused as I am.
She lets out a long breath. “Torn. I want to be with you. I enjoy being with you, but that almost makes me feel out of control because I can’t seem to resist you . . . even when you have another woman on your arm.”
“How are we going to fight this, Luna?” I ask, pulling her to my chest and resting my forehead against hers.
She wraps her arms around my neck and looks up into my eyes. “I have no idea, but I’m suddenly wondering why we need to.”
I feel the same way. “We both know why. We have to be stronger than this.” I quickly kiss her lips, then turn to walk out of the closet. It’s only when I walk back into the party and see Dee Dee that I remember I was supposed to get our coats.
She walks up to me. “Where are our coats?” I hang my head as she continues her line of questioning. “What’s wrong? Where’d you go?”
“I fucked Luna,” I confess, still staring at my shoes.
“What the hell, Daniel?” She smacks me on the arm and walks out of the room to get our coats.
On the car ride home, she’s sitting in the passenger seat, staring at me. “So was it worth it?”
“I don’t know, Dee Dee. It’s out of my control,” I say, hoping she’ll let me off the hook with that, but knowing Dee Dee, she won’t.
“So you’re saying you weren’t in control when you took your dick out of your pants and thrust it into that poor girl?”
“No, I wasn’t in control. My dick was. That’s the whole point. That’s how I got into this mess! I can’t help that Luna was damn near attacking me! Damn, I’m just a guy, Dee Dee!”
She laughs but somehow manages to keep the angry look on her face anyway. “You were in control, Daniel. You don’t accidentally fuck someone.”
“Well, maybe it was your fault. You were supposed to keep me away from her. Looks like you didn’t do your job very well.”
She scoffs. “How could you expect me to? I wasn’t being paid very well, you know. One glass of nasty-tasting punch isn’t payment.”
“I didn’t say I’d pay you,” I argue.
“Well, if you keep referring to this as a job, then I’m going to expect payment,” she argues back. “Look, there’s obviously something between you two that neither of you can deny. So figure it out. Either get with her or end it once and for all, even if that means you can’t be the band’s lawyer.” We’ve arrived at her apartment, and she gives me one last pointed look before climbing out.
I watch to make sure she gets into the building safely then take off toward my place, but I don’t end up at home. I end up driving aimlessly around the city, spacing out and just concentrating on the road. I know Dee Dee is right. I need to make up my mind and stick with it. This constant back and forth is enough to drive anyone nuts. It’s time to do some soul-searching. I want her. God knows I want her. But how can it work? She’ll be gone more than she’s around. How can anyone have a relationship like that? I’m completely lost in thought as