Rocking His Fake World (Love You Forever #3) - Alexis Winter Page 0,22
or answer their questions. I’m too angry and don’t want to take it out on them.
I drive straight home and try to cool off by taking a long, hot shower. I comb through my hair but leave it to air dry. I pull on a pair of black panties and a white cutoff shirt that ends just above my belly button. I pour a glass of Jack and sit on the couch, wondering how to fix this mess I’ve gotten myself into. My eyes land on Journey, and like I always used to do, I reach for her to work through the problem that’s bugging me. I need to take a journey right now to get away from all my problems and worries.
I take the guitar back to my couch and start tuning it to perfection. When everything is sounding the way it should, I start playing whatever notes come to mind. Almost on their own, lyrics start flooding my brain and I stop to grab some paper and a pencil.
* * *
I was lost,
lonely,
broken when I met you, met you.
I was cold,
scared,
broken when I met you, met you.
You walked into that smoky bar
and sucked the air from the room.
You lit my world on fire
and suddenly
there was nothing but you, but you.
* * *
My singing stops, as do my fingers. What am I even doing? I’m in a rock band that refuses to cover romantic songs. This will never make it past my living room walls. I push the pad of paper away and lay down the guitar. I finish off my glass of Jack and go to put my glass in my sink. As I’m turning off the lights and locking up, someone knocks on the door. I look through the peephole and see Daniel. Even though I know I should, I don’t hesitate opening the door. He gives me one look and somehow manages to read every emotion bubbling up inside me. Seconds later, he’s stepping into my apartment and pulling me against him, his lips on mine. The door gets slammed shut as he picks me up against him, carrying me to my room.
Monday comes around and as I’m getting ready for this meeting, excitement and nervousness are filling my entire body, making it almost feel weighed down. Today is like the moment of truth. Today will forever change my life. I’ll either get everything I’ve ever wanted and lose Daniel in the process, or I’ll lose everything I’ve ever wanted and get a guy I’m not totally sure about. I want Daniel, but do I want to spend my life with him? We haven’t been together long enough to figure that out yet.
I grab my things and head toward the door, meeting up at the garage with the band so we can drive over together. Van and I haven’t talked much since the night we got into the fight. We’ve had practice every night since, but neither of us has even uttered a word in the other’s direction unless it was about the music. We came in, did our job, and left without so much as a hello, goodbye, or fuck you.
As we’re all leaving the garage to pile into the van we take to gigs, Van pulls me aside. “Look, Luna, I meant everything I said the other night, but I’m not trying to butt into your life. I’m just concerned for the band and our future. It wasn’t my place to say those things, but I felt they needed to be said. Can we please let this go so we can enjoy this day?”
“You’re right, Van. It wasn’t your place to say those things. In fact, everything you said I’d already thought of before. I know now isn’t the time to get into a relationship, which is why Daniel and I aren’t serious. We’ve already had the same discussion. He knows that if I have to choose between him or this band, I’ll choose the band. We’ve worked too hard and for too long to give up an opportunity like this.”
He looks at me from beneath his lashes. “So, we’re friends again?” He offers up a small, hopeful smile.
I laugh. “We’re always been friends, you idiot.”
He laughs and pulls me in for a long hug. “All right, let’s go learn our destiny, shall we?”
“We shall,” I agree, leading the way to the van.
As we’re playing for the label, I try to avoid focusing on the outcome of this meeting. Instead, I trick myself into