Revealing the Monster (Playing with Monsters #4) - Amelia Hutchins Page 0,31

helping it any. I’ve made my choice.”

“It’s a stupid-ass choice.” I crossed my arms over my chest, digging my heels in, glaring at Spyder as I lifted a brow in challenge.

“It’s my life, and I decide, Kitty.”

“It’s still a stupid fucking decision. You’re going to fuck me because that’s the option I choose.”

His eyes widened before he turned to Lucian. “Muzzle her, now.”

“Lena’s chosen this path, and I can’t say I’m opposed to it, Spyder. One night where she isn’t mine,” Lucian returned, fixing his tie. “She’s ours. Anything goes, and we don’t give her any mercy. I warned her that having two primordial beings going hard against her soft body wouldn’t be wise, but she told me how she’d wished you had thrown her down and fucked her in Portland.” Spyder’s eyes snapped back to me, narrowing as if I’d betrayed him somehow.

“I did.” I shrugged nonchalantly, staring him down. “I also wanted to suck you off and be that store worker who got to swallow that fucking cock. I’m not going to lie about what I crave or what I want. Since I died and came back a fury, I find that I’m done pretending not to want this, whatever it is. For one night, we go hard, and we end this. No offense, Spyder, but I really want you out of my dirty fucking mind. I am sick and tired of dreaming about riding your dick because, let us be honest here; we aren’t the ones creating need between us. We’re all pulled into this situation because I got my pussy licked by Hades while fucking Lucifer in a pretty damn convincing Lucian suit.”

“Keep his name out of your fucking mouth, Kitty,” Spyder snarled, and Lucian snorted his agreement. “No. It isn’t happening. Take her home.”

“You can come with us willingly, or I’ll knock your ass out and ride your dick so that I know how it feels, and you get nothing from it. Do you really want to miss out on finally feeling me from the inside? Choose.” I buffed my nails on my shirt, glaring at both men as Spyder grunted and then laughed.

“Is she for real?” Spyder asked, staring me down.

“I want this to happen. Before, I wasn’t ready. I’d been through hell, and I cared what everyone would think of me. I’m done caring because only a few people’s opinions matter to me, and two of them are standing right here inside this room, Spyder. No one else has to understand this, but we all want this to take place. We won’t know if we tried everything possible to avoid your stupid-ass decision unless we do this.”

“Lena, no,” Spyder growled, using my name, which was rare for him. “You think I can fucking live with this, your pity fuck?”

“I don’t want a pity fuck, asshole. I want you to unleash that darkness within you on me, and I’m not asking you to hold anything back,” I admitted, as his shoulders shook with laughter.

“Get out and take her with you. I made my choice. I’m not changing my mind.”

“Fuck you.” I wasn’t backing down. “You selfish prick. You might be able to live with your decision, but I can’t! I don’t want this fucking baggage. I have enough shit that I don’t even know how to unpack! I lost my child, my family, and everyone I loved, Spyder. I can’t live knowing that I didn’t do anything, and that you died because of me! Like everyone else. You don’t get to put this shit on me. Do you hear me? I can’t keep losing people. You are not supposed to die, dammit. You’re immortal. So no, you don’t get to be some fucking martyr when I want to fuck you! Okay? Okay!”

Both men stood silently, watching me wipe away the tears that ran down my cheeks. I pulled myself together and looked at Spyder. Squaring my shoulders, I shook my head, fighting down the emotion that was trying to swallow me whole.

“Your decision to die is stupid, and you and Lucian know it. You will be at the club, and you will fuck me. Understand? I’m willing, and I crave this. I have craved you since Portland, asshole. I was scared before, but I am not anymore. If I can enjoy Hades and Lucifer, then I’m pretty sure I’m going to fucking love you assholes going at me hard. No mercy. Nothing is off-limits. I will belong to you both for one night, and