Reckless (Mason Family #3) - Adriana Locke Page 0,57
heart breaking right in front of me.
I touch Rosie’s arm to redirect her. She snaps her anger back to me.
“Jaxi isn’t mean,” I say softly. “She loves you. She knows what’s best for you.”
“You’re mean too!”
The room stills around the three of us. There’s a whole lot of emotion drifting through the room, and if I don’t handle this correctly, feelings could get hurt.
“Look, I know you’re angry,” I tell Rosie. “Anger happens sometimes. But when we get angry, we don’t take it out on other people.”
“I am not angry!” Her face turns bright red. “I want to go home. Take me home. I want my mommy!”
Jaxi sucks in a breath behind me. I don’t even try to look at her. My heart cracks with the emotion in Rosie’s words and tone. I can’t imagine how it makes Jaxi feel.
I’ve wondered when this moment would come. Rosie has taken all of this way too easily. I’d hoped that maybe she was a unicorn child and would just take the life transitions thrown at her as easily as it seemed she did.
But I knew better. And now we’re here.
“Do you miss her?” I ask gently. “Do you miss your mommy?”
The frustration on Rosie’s face slips, and her lips begin to tremble. “I miss her.”
“It’s okay to miss her,” I say. “You love her.”
She nods. A strand of hair swings into her face and sticks to her cheek. I reach up and brush it away.
Jaxi kneels next to me. Pain streaks through her eyes. I want to pull her into a hug until it goes away.
“I love your mommy, too,” Jaxi tells Rosie. “And I know it hurts that you can’t see her. I wish I could fix that.”
Rosie hides her eyes with the back of her hand. “I just want to see her.”
A tear slips down Jaxi’s cheek.
I move so that I’m sitting on the floor with my back against the couch. I pull Rosie onto my lap and nudge Jaxi until she’s sitting next to me. Rosie buries her head against my shoulder, wetting the fabric with her tears.
I bring an arm around Jaxi’s shoulder and pull her against me too. She curls up against my side, her hair covering her face, and knots my shirt in her hand as she presses her forehead into my chest.
Soft sobs whisper through the room as I hold my two girls.
My chest feels like it’s breaking in two as they cry for a woman I never knew. I wish I could do more—I wish I could fix this. But there’s nothing to do but sit here and let them mourn their loss.
I rest my head against the top of Jaxi’s and say a silent prayer for them. For Nettie too.
I press a kiss to the top of Jaxi’s head.
Slowly, Rosie’s cries fade, and her body stops shaking. She laces a hand across my body and onto my other shoulder. Her breathing evens out.
My chest is tight as I take in the moment—our trio trying to muddle our way through this. Rosie needs us. Jaxi needs Rosie and me too.
I don’t think they understand how much I’m beginning to need them in return. It’s taken me a day to ponder what my brothers said about love because I am who I am. Well, who I was … but now I want more.
Jaxi’s gorgeous and funny and has the best heart. She makes me want to do better, be better. Falling for her was easy. We click. It’s so insanely natural to be with her—like it’s the only way I can see living now.
But the two of them together?
Since they got here, I’ve had a reason to get up in the morning. I want to impress Jaxi with tales from the office. I practice the voices for Rosie’s bedtime stories on my way home from work every day.
I won’t let us fall apart.
Jaxi rustles at my side and sits up. Her eyes are red and swollen. “I’m sorry,” she says.
“For what?”
“For breaking down like that.”
I shake my head. “You are a hell of a lot stronger than I would’ve been in your situation.”
She half smiles.
“Let’s get off this floor and get her to bed,” I say.
Jaxi nods and gets to her feet. She offers me a hand, and I give it to her, even though her pulling me up is a joke.
We face each other. Unspoken words swim around us, dancing in the midst of the walls that were just broken down.