no one else on the street had a Jag. Plus, I saw her park her car in the main drive earlier that day—my father had blocked our drive and internal garage with his own vehicle.”
So many small pieces that had all contributed to her death. I would’ve been fast enough if she’d parked in the garage. I might’ve been able to stop her. I always had before.
“What happened after that?” Detective Regan asked, his voice calm and soothing.
As if I was a wild animal that had to be stroked into compliance. I wondered if that type of gentling really worked on suspects. It must do, if they kept on using such things. “I stayed on the balcony for a while, hoping she’d come back, but I heard nothing. Since I was already awake, I went downstairs to see if my father was around.”
I’d really gone to ask what asshole thing he’d said to her now. Sixteen was also the year I’d begun to call a spade a spade when it came to my father. “There was no one in the house. The living area was empty, but I saw shattered glass on the hearth.”
“Shattered glass?”
“My parents were both big believers in throwing crystal tumblers at any available wall or surface when they fought.” I shrugged. “I left it, and decided to go back to bed.” A sense of wrongness gnawed at me, but that was no revelation; everything about that night had been bad. “I thought my mother would be there when I woke up. She always came home once she’d cooled down.”
The two officers exchanged a look, before Neri said, “So this wasn’t unusual? For her to drive off?”
“No, though she usually didn’t give him the satisfaction of thinking that he’d scared her off. She’d stand and fight and take pleasure in telling him to take it like a man.”
“Aarav, I know it’s a difficult thing to imagine, but do you believe your father could’ve harmed your mother?”
I answered almost before Regan had completed his sentence. “It’s not difficult at all. They hated each other but they also had this weird compulsion to be together. It was toxic.” The kind of toxic that poisoned from the inside out. “I can imagine him following her to her car to continue their fight, doing something he couldn’t take back, then dumping her body.”
It struck me all at once that that didn’t explain the rug. I’d seen shards of glass on it that night, but no blood or anything else incriminating. Was it possible my mother had actually come back that night, only to be murdered in the living area?
“We’ve found no reports of domestic violence at the home.” Regan made a show of looking at his notebook.
“Rich Indians don’t report domestic violence, detective. It’s bad for the reputation—and reputation is everything. The shame, the shame, what will people say?” Popping open the tab of my Coke on that mocking litany, I listened to the gas fizzing out. “And the houses in the Cul-de-Sac are far enough apart that the neighbors can’t hear anything. Even if they could, they’d keep out of it. None of their business.”
“Are you saying there was domestic violence?”
I took time to have a long hit of the sweet, sugary drink. It was a rush to the system. “Not as you’d think of it. My father didn’t beat my mother. They were violent to each other with words the majority of the time—along with the odd smashed glass or other thrown object. A lot of screaming of ugly words punctuated by the breaking of inanimate objects.”
“Do you remember any of those words?” Neri asked, her dark eyes watchful as always.
“He called her a whore and she laughed and said he was the one fucking his secretary on the boardroom table like some cheap porn star.” My lips kicked up at the quick blink Neri couldn’t quite hide.
Yes, Neri, there’s always a ton of trash hidden behind the glamour and the wealth.
“I realize you were young,” Regan said, “but were you aware of infidelity on the part of your father? Or were those just angry words?”
“Oh, he was definitely banging his secretary. She came by the house a couple of weeks after Mum disappeared, and I heard her in his study, crying and saying she felt used. Poor girl thought she was going to be the next Mrs. Rai.” My mind stirred. I’d almost forgotten my father’s fling, it had been so ridiculously cliché. But now . . .