around the top rail for her to pull on. She was the wrong way round to be able to brace her feet on anything but I didn’t want to move her now. This primitive little storeroom!
A squeak as Bridie wheeled in a second baby crib. She murmured, For when it’s needed.
Honor White hissed through her teeth, God be with me, God help me, God save me.
A red puddle was forming around her hip. Old brown blood coming out during labour was quite usual, but this was very bright.
Her eyes followed mine to the scarlet. She wheezed, Am I dying?
I said, Oh, birth’s a messy business.
But by the time Dr. Lynn bustled in, Honor White’s bleeding was distinctly heavier.
I gave a rapid report.
Thirty-six weeks, said the doctor, that’s only a week from early term, so the lungs should be well developed, at least. And most stargazers do come out on their own.
Stargazers?
That was Bridie.
I explained over my shoulder: Born faceup, looking towards the sky.
Dr. Lynn muttered, No, it’s the mother’s pulse force that concerns me, and the haemorrhage. Most likely the afterbirth’s come away already.
Honor White bore the internal exam wordlessly.
At the sink after, scouring her hands again, Dr. Lynn said, You’ve done splendidly, Mrs. White, but we’re going to get your baby out without further delay. Forceps, please, Nurse.
My stomach clenched. I asked, French or English?
French.
The long ones. That told me the bad news: the head wasn’t very far down the passage yet.
Bridie was all agog, but I hadn’t time to explain.
I fetched a pair of long Andersons, with their handle grips and finger ring, as well as carbolic solution, a scalpel, ligatures, scissors, cloths, a needle, and thread. I filled a syringe with cocaine hydrochloride.
I’d seen women left botched by forceps, their infants with skulls dented or mashed, sometimes spastic for life. Don’t think about that.
Dr. Lynn was asking Honor White to lie on her back.
She cried, Wait!
She gripped the towel and pushed, a vein standing out at her temple.
The doctor asked, Ready now?
Honor White nodded. Her cough sounded sharp enough to crack a rib.
Local anesthetic, Doctor, as she won’t take chloroform?
Dr. Lynn accepted the syringe of cocaine hydrochloride and injected it into Honor White’s soft parts while I held her legs.
Once the area was numbed, the doctor made the snip. Working fast, before the oncoming pang, she slid the first flat branch of the forceps all the way up and alongside the foetus’s skull. Then the next.
Honor White cried out then.
Blood ran even faster; I wondered how the doctor could see what she was doing in this gaudy mess. That was the paradox of forceps—if they didn’t get the baby out right away, they could worsen a haemorrhage.
Faster, faster.
Dr. Lynn clicked the handles together at the midpoint and locked them.
Honor White writhed and coughed as pain struck her like lightning.
I helped her up a little so she could catch her breath and wiped the catarrh from her lips.
Dr. Lynn murmured to herself, Easy does it.
Gripping the awful tongs, she worked on. I wedged myself behind Honor White, holding her as still as I could as she leaked more and more scarlet across the sheets.
Holy Jesus, Honor White said, gasping.
Dr. Lynn straightened up and gave me a preoccupied shake of the head. Ah, not quite within reach yet.
She slid the forceps out in one piece and rested them on the tray. Perhaps ergotoxine to strengthen the contractions? But it’s so unpredictable…
I’d never heard Dr. Lynn dither. Awkward, I looked away and busied myself taking Honor White’s pulse. Twenty-six in fifteen seconds, so a heart rate of one hundred and four. What worried me wasn’t the speed but the lack of force, a feeble music under my fingers.
I bent lower to hear what the patient was whispering: For though I should walk in the midst of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for thou art with me.
When I put the back of my hand to her grey cheek, it was clammy with sweat. Are you nauseated, Mrs. White?
I thought she nodded but I couldn’t be sure. Her pressure’s dropping, Doctor.
(She might lose consciousness at any moment.)
Dr. Lynn stared; for once she seemed at a loss. In that case, she said, I doubt saline will be enough. Mrs. White needs blood, but the hospital’s stocks are awfully low. I wonder, would there be any walking donors in the building?
Donors on the hoof, that was the jocular phrase. My mind cleared and I told her, We nurses are all