My voice came out shrill: They could be back tomorrow. It’s not safe for you here.
Oh, my dear girl, nowhere’s safe. But sufficient unto the day and all that.
I should have been back on the ward by now, but I lingered. On the desk stood a silver framed photo, Dr. Lynn arm in arm with a smiling woman. I asked, Your sister?
Her smile was lopsided. No, I’m afraid my family tried to have me declared a lunatic when I was deported, and even now they won’t let me come home for Christmas.
I’m so sorry.
That’s Miss Ffrench-Mullen in the picture, the dear friend I live with—when I’m not camping in box rooms, that is. We met in the Belgian refugee relief effort, and she’s funding my clinic.
Clearly Dr. Lynn did nothing in the conventional way. I was suddenly aware that I was being nosy; I muttered my thanks and turned towards the door.
Has the O’Rahilly infant tried the breast?
Oh, she’s latched on well already.
Very good. Nourishment direct from above. Not that these slum women have much to spare, Dr. Lynn added with a sigh. That baby will suck the marrow from her mother’s bones and still have less chance of surviving her first year than a man in the trenches.
That horrified me. Really?
She said sternly, Infant mortality in Dublin stands at fifteen per cent—that’s what living in the dampest, most crowded housing in Europe will do. Such hypocrisy, the way the authorities preach hygiene to people forced to subsist like rats in a sack. Year after year newborns are sent out in their frail battalions, undefended against dysentery, bronchitis, syphilis, TB…and the death rate for illegitimates is several times higher again.
I thought of Honor White’s babies. The difference between them and Mary O’Rahilly’s could hardly be physiological; I supposed those born out of wedlock had so few on their side fighting to keep them alive.
Dr. Lynn rolled on furiously. Ah, well, constitutional debility, the cushioned classes sigh. But perhaps slum children wouldn’t be so bloody debilitated if we tried the experiment of giving them clean milk and fresh air!
I felt rather hectored but also shaken by her fervour.
She put her head to one side, as if weighing me up. In our proclamation, there’s one line that’s very close to my heart: cherishing all the children of the nation equally.
I stiffened at the mention of the manifesto the rebels had pasted up all over the city two years ago announcing their imaginary republic; I remembered skimming a copy (bottom torn off) on a buckled lamppost. I said gruffly, But to found a nation on violence?
Now, Julia Power. Has any nation ever been founded otherwise?
Dr. Lynn held up her palms. And really, she added, would you call me a violent woman?
Tears prickled behind my eyes. I said, I just don’t understand how a physician could have turned to the gun. Nearly five hundred people died.
She didn’t take offence; she looked back at me. Here’s the thing—they die anyway, from poverty rather than bullets. The way this godforsaken island’s misgoverned, it’s mass murder by degrees. If we continue to stand by, none of us will have clean hands.
My head was spinning. I said, faltering: I really have no time for politics.
Oh, but everything’s politics, don’t you know?
I swallowed. I’d better get back to the ward.
Dr. Lynn nodded. Tell me, though, your brother, the soldier—has he come home yet?
The question caught me off guard. Yes, Tim lives with me. Though he’s…not what he was.
Dr. Lynn waited.
Mute, if you must know. For now. The psychologist said he should recover in time.
(Not quite a lie, just an overstatement.)
Dr. Lynn’s mouth twisted.
I asked accusingly, What? You don’t think he will?
I’ve never met your brother, Nurse Power. But if he’s been to hell and back, how could he not be left altered?
Her words were gentle but they crushed me. I was the one who knew him, and I couldn’t deny the truth of what she was saying. I should face it—the old Tim was not likely to come back.
I turned to go.
The doctor wound up the gramophone’s crank.
The song hadn’t a tune, exactly. One woman singing, very melancholy at first, with strings behind her. Then her voice blazed up, slow fireworks.
I didn’t ask, but Dr. Lynn said, It’s called Liebestod. That means love death.
The love of death?
She shook her head. Love and death at the same moment. She’s singing over her beloved’s body.