the mix-up happened is an internal matter for the hospital. If Pete made a small mistake over the exact timing, it’s hardly a big deal.
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Case no. 12675/PU78B65, Exhibit 31: deleted texts from Peter Riley’s iPhone, (a) from Peter Riley to Bronagh Walsh, and (b) from Bronagh Walsh to Peter Riley, in reply.
Saw them today. Said I remembered seeing the tag on Theo’s leg a few minutes after he was transferred to your incubator.
You’re a star. xxx
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PETE
I DROVE TO HIGHGATE to collect Theo from the Lamberts’ on autopilot. Not because I was worried about the small lie I’d told on Bronagh’s behalf—I’d been pretty nonspecific, and in any case, it probably wasn’t even a lie—but because I still couldn’t get my head around everything that was going on. I even found myself wondering if we shouldn’t pull out of suing the hospital—but since that legal action was the only one not costing us anything, and would hopefully raise the funds to pay Anita Chowdry’s fees to boot, it seemed crazy to end it now.
I wasn’t really thinking about the Lamberts as I walked up the steps to their door. I assumed the buzzer would be answered by Tania, or that possibly Lucy would be there, wittering on about cups of tea and being polite to each other. But the door was opened by Miles. He was wearing a T-shirt and running shorts.
“Pete,” he said warmly. “How are you doing?”
I stared at him. I felt something I’d almost never felt in my life—a physical, atavistic hatred, an almost irresistible compulsion to do bloodcurdling violence to another human being. The hairs on the back of my neck rose and my face flushed involuntarily.
“I’ve come to collect Theo,” I said curtly.
“He’s just having a wash—finger painting got a bit messy. He’ll be along in a minute.”
I nodded, unwilling to engage in small talk. Miles put his head on one side and regarded me quizzically.
“You really hate me, don’t you, Pete?” he said softly.
“I don’t hate you,” I said coldly. “I dislike what you’re doing and the way you’re doing it, that’s all.”
“Really?” He studied my face. “No, I think you hate me. I never waste time hating people.” He stepped forward, pulling the door behind him so we couldn’t be overheard. “You know, some pretty dark stuff happens in the scrum. Gouging, punching, a thumb in the shorts, collapsing the front row the moment you’ve got the ball…But after the match is over, you shake hands and buy each other a beer. Because it’s the player who hit you hardest who you respect the most.”
I stared at him. “This is not some fucking game.”
“No.” Miles shook his head emphatically. “It’s a contest. A contest I will win. Not because I hate you, but because the prize of this particular contest is my son.” He suddenly leaned in very close, so he was almost talking over my shoulder, his lips close to my ear. It was all I could do not to flinch. “But. Just. Remember. This. You have him on loan, nothing more. And if you do anything, anything at all, to undermine my future relationship with him, I will seek you out and I will kill you.”
He stood back, smiling, just as Theo pulled the door open and ran out. “Daddeeee!” he cried excitedly, charging into my legs.
“Ready to go, Theo?” Without waiting for an answer, I took his hand and started down the steps.
“Bye, Theo,” Miles called cheerily.
“Bye, Moles,” Theo called back over his shoulder. “Love youuu!”
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PETE
“HE DIDN’T MEAN IT,” Maddie whispered.
I looked across at Theo, now engrossed in a wildlife documentary in which wolves were tearing a deer to pieces. It probably wasn’t very age-appropriate, but for once he was actually looking quite peaceful, sitting cross-legged in front of the TV in his pajamas, sucking his thumb. “I know. Miles almost certainly taught him to say it. Bribed him with sweets or something.” I paused. “But I could count on one hand the number of times Theo’s spontaneously said that to me. And what if the CAFCASS people hear him and assume he does mean it?”
“So we’ll tell them. Add it to the list: Miles Lambert has been coaching our son to say, ‘I love you.’ ”
I watched Theo for a few moments. “Why doesn’t he say it to us?”
“He’s a boy. An unusually confident little boy. Which is a credit to your parenting.”
“Maybe. Or…”
“What?”
The wolves, having brought down the deer, were now defending their meal from a bear