Perfectly Lonely - Jessica Marin Page 0,81

possible and I’m grateful each and every day for my second chance at love, at happiness. I look behind my shoulder to see him waiting for me. He has taken Jenna’s place by accompanying me, but is being respectful of my time alone. He sees me looking at him and smiles as he blows me a kiss. I give him a thumbs up, indicating that I’m doing okay, before turning my attention back to Charlie’s grave.

“Life sure is different now. I’m proud of myself and I know you are too,” I continue on with honesty, not feeling guilty anymore for loving someone else other than him. “He makes me happy, Charlie. So incredibly happy. You always wanted this kind of life for me and I’m sorry it took me so long to want it for myself,” I sigh, trying hard not to have any regrets at how long this journey has been for me. But if I wanted it for myself sooner, who knows if Chase would have come into my life.

“We have to go back to Vancouver soon to start the new ice wine harvest, but I promise you that I’ll always be back to see you.” Chase and I have agreed that we will split up the year between our two cities — six months in Vancouver and six months in Chicago. It will be a big transition for me, but with Chase by my side, I’ll be just fine.

I look around the cemetery one last time, deciding that it’s time to go. We are all on borrowed time and I now would rather spend all of that time with Chase and the rest of the people who love me.

“I have to go, Charlie, but I know you’ll always be with me.” I keep my normal ritual of kissing the grass before I stand up to depart. I take one last look at his headstone before exhaling, not realizing I was holding my breath.

“I love you, Charlie. Always and forever.” I turn around and walk away from my past and into the awaiting arms of my future.

It’s time for Sean to get his happily ever after - but will it be with Cora or will he take a chance on his childhood friend, Isla? This is NOT a love triangle and there is no cheating. See for yourself by reading a sneak peak of Edge of Desire, book 3 in the Let Me In Series!

Excerpt from Edge of Desire

CORA

I open the door to my apartment and sigh in relief to finally be back home. I just got off the plane from shooting my latest movie for the last three months in different locations around the world and only have a small amount of time to rest before the press tour for another one of my movies begins. At least I will be with Cal during this press tour! I roll my suitcase into my bedroom and fall down onto my bed, exhaustion settling in.

What people don’t understand or see is how utterly exhausting it is being an actress. Auditions, meetings, rehearsal, wardrobe changes, memorizing your lines, traveling, waiting around in your trailer, press releases, award shows… the list is endless. Thank goodness I was in the right place at the right time, vacationing with Cal and Sean during one of our school breaks, when all three of us were discovered by a talent scout. The talent scout got us in the door, but we have all had to work our asses off in order to keep ourselves in the business. All these years later, Cal and Sean are at the height of their careers while I still have to suck some director’s cock in order to even be considered for a role. Not to mention, I am still single, with Cal seeming to drift farther out of my reach.

“Damn you, Cal,” I say out loud to no one but myself. I get off the bed and go straight to the kitchen to open a bottle of wine. Once I pour a large glass of Pinot Noir, I sit down and look at the view out of my living room window. A view that should have been London, but instead is a view of a nasty, dirty lake.

Lake Michigan in Chicago.

If you asked me where I thought I would be in my life right now, the answer would’ve been being Cal Harrington’s wife and us living in London part time while we traveled the world together, taking turns shooting