lovers. Tim never shares anything. Besides, there was nothing about it in the prenup. It seemed unlikely that a document detailed enough to determine what the penalty was for putting on three pounds in weight wouldn’t cover something as unusual as polyamory.
“Me neither,” Tanner says. “But it was enough to muddy the waters and make the prosecution wary of using it. And while plenty of women came forward after his arrest to allege he’d tried it on with them over the years, we were never able to find a single man she’d actually hooked up with.” Tanner pauses. “There was something else they didn’t bring before the jury. Something that in my view was much more likely to be relevant.”
It takes a moment for what Tanner’s just told you about the other women to sink in. So Sian wasn’t the first. But of course, she wouldn’t be, not if Tim was conforming to the pattern described in that book. Where such men love, they cannot desire, and where they desire, they cannot love. If all the women who weren’t Madonnas were whores, that still left an awful lot of whores.
And you—is that the real reason Tim didn’t give you genitals? Not because it was too difficult, or because of what people might say, but out of some almost primeval, patriarchal obsession with female modesty? Are you simply the modern-day equivalent of all those untold millions of women throughout history, mutilated to disable their threatening sexuality? To shame them, control their desires, stop them from being fully human?
Tanner’s looking at you expectantly. You drag your attention back to him. “What?”
“I said, Abbie’s drug counselor had reported a child protection issue.”
“What kind of issue?”
The detective grimaces. “That was the frustrating thing. State law requires drug counselors to report any issue affecting the safety of a child. But it doesn’t mandate that they have to be specific about it, or give any follow-up information. So the way many of them balance the law with client confidentiality is to make an initial report, then clam up. Abbie’s counselor was no exception.”
You make a decision. “Does this counselor have a name?”
“Piers Boyd. Works out of his home near Half Moon Bay. I guess that’s why she chose him—he was close to their beach house.” Tanner shoots you a look. “You thinking of speaking to him?”
“It can’t hurt.”
“Well, if he says anything, be sure to share it with me. You bring me something about Abbie, I might be able to talk to Lisa Cullen. Get her to reconsider those proceedings.”
“I don’t need your protection,” you say loftily. “I’ve got Tim and his lawyer.”
But despite your defiant words, you know it isn’t true. As far as Tim’s concerned, you’re just an algorithm to find his wife. To his lawyer, you’re a bargaining chip in the settlement deal he’s probably hammering out right now. Having Detective Tanner on your side might turn out to be a lifesaver.
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Piers Boyd’s address is on his website, an amateur-looking affair that reveals he’s a life coach and qualified Reiki healer as well as a licensed drug counselor. But not, it seems, a particularly busy one. You call ahead to make an appointment, and there doesn’t seem to be any difficulty fixing a time to see him today.
“What name?” he wants to know.
“Gail,” you say, after the briefest pause.
“How nice.” His voice is obscured briefly as he pulls the top off a pen with his teeth. “Short for Abigail, presumably?”
“Kind of.” That’s to say, Abbie is already taken, so you get the only bit of Abigail left over. Story of your life, you think ruefully.
Boyd lives on Balboa Boulevard, just across the street from the ocean. A wind chime tinkles gently by the gate, and down the side of the house you glimpse a couple of surfboards and a wet suit, still dripping onto the concrete. The man who opens the door is in his late forties, his hair tied up in a man-bun. His feet are bare and he’s wearing baggy Indian trousers—dhoti pants, an inner voice identifies.
“Gail?” he says, and then, “Oh. It’s you.” He seems both startled and a little uneasy, which is exactly what you intended.
“Yes. The cobot of the woman you counseled. Can I come in?”
“I guess.” He opens the door a little reluctantly.
“I read about you,” he says when you’re both seated in a small consultation room that was clearly once a garage. “I never thought I’d see you in my house, though.”