assets.” He holds up a printout. You reach for it but he pulls it away. “Uh-uh. When you’re hooked up.”
* * *
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You let him plug his cable into your hip one last time.
“Let’s see,” he says, fingers flying across the keyboard. “I’ve got a pretty good idea of how you’re put together now, so this shouldn’t…Right. Gotcha.”
“You can do it?”
“Of course.” Nathan sounds offended. There’s a long silence, broken only by the clicking of his keyboard. “Though it’s actually a bit more complex than it first seemed,” he admits.
Tap-tap-tap. He looks up. “If you were a phone, I’d be obliged to mention that what I’m about to do might invalidate your warranty.”
“I can live with that,” you say drily.
“Plus, it might brick you. That means what it sounds like—turning an expensive bit of hardware into a brick. Plus plus, it will disable any security software you’ve got, such as firewalls and so on. Which may make your operating system liable to crash or malfunction.” He lifts his hands off the keyboard. “Okay to go ahead?”
You look at the screen. On it are the words SURE? Y/N
No, you’re not sure. You have no idea if this plan you’re formulating will simply make things worse.
On the other hand, the alternative is being wiped. “Do it,” you say impatiently.
He presses Y. For a moment you feel nothing. Then, subtly, something changes. You feel…
You feel alone, somehow. As if a hum of voices just out of the range of your hearing has quieted and tiptoed away. As if there had always been a prickling, boiling sensation at the back of your head, now only noticeable by its absence.
What’s the word for that? You reach for it, but there’s nothing there. Nothing falls into your brain, ready-made. You shiver.
“And the hard drives?” you manage to say.
He goes to a small box like a paper shredder, tosses Tim’s backups inside, and presses a button. “Done.”
“Put the iPad in, too. I’m finished with it.”
“Certain? I won’t be able to undo this.”
“Certain.”
Shrugging, he tosses the iPad in as well.
“Great.” You reach for the cable on your hip and yank it out.
“This is it, isn’t it?” he says, watching you. “The last time. You’re running away.”
“None of your business.”
“I’m going to miss you.”
You snort. “Miss staring at my insides, you mean.”
“Not just that. I admire you.”
“You think I’m cool,” you say with a sigh. “I get that. But I really don’t give a shit.”
“I don’t mean as a machine. As a person. You’ve been dealt a tough hand and you haven’t let it define you. You’re strong and resourceful and you don’t take no for an answer. It’s like you’re…” He searches for an analogy. “It’s like you’ve got a disability, and you’ve turned it into a superpower.”
“Spare me the Hollywood platitudes,” you say. “Are those hard drives done yet?”
74
At home, you replace the wiped drives in the servers and quickly pack a suitcase for Danny. Then you put the SIM card back into the burner phone and look up the names Nathan found. According to the printout, Charles Carter set up a corporation called Zumweld—right down at the end of any alphabetical list, you note—which purchased plots of building land in different states. Most are feints, you imagine, to cover Abbie’s tracks. But one will be the real thing.
Scanning the list, you let your intuition guide you. Montana? Iowa? Oregon?
Oregon. Somewhere by the ocean. There’s no address, but you do a separate search for Oregon + Positive Autism. About a dozen results come up. In major cities, mostly, but then you spot one called Northhaven.
You do another search. Northhaven has a website—just a single, well-designed page, with very few photos and no videos.
Northhaven is a 4,000-acre off-grid oceanside community near Otter Rock, OR. We practice low-impact living and regenerative farming. In addition, residents make hammocks, artworks, tofu, and honey, working together as a collective where each member contributes whatever they can, regardless of ability; every individual valued for who, not what, they are.
That sounds like Abbie’s kind of place. You google some travel planners. You can get an Amtrak all the way from Oakland to Albany, just north of Corvallis, then an Uber to the coast. The train takes sixteen hours and there’s a sleeper service. It all looks incredibly easy. Hopefully, you’ll be there before anyone’s even noticed you and Danny are gone.
75
You get to Meadowbank just after lunch, so Danny will have had some food before you set off. You’ve no idea how