The Perfect Fix (Perfect Kisses #5) - Miley Maine Page 0,4

didn’t believe it was as big an issue as they were making out. Sure, me and Ronnie would have a baby, but that didn’t have to change my life. I could still aim high and get the job I wanted, have the life I desired and having a child wasn’t going to get in my way...

Of course, now I know that was completely stupid because having a baby is hard, it changes your life in ways you aren’t expecting, it’s impossible to ‘have it all’.

So, when my parents kicked me out, I went straight to Ronnie’s, prepared to talk about our future together. We were in love, we had the best relationship ever, even if this wasn’t exactly in the plans, we would work through it together.

Only he didn’t have any plans to have a child. He didn’t have any desire to be a father, he didn’t even have any wishes to be with me full time, he just saw me as someone to have sex with. It took me a while to accept that I saw our relationship so much more than it actually was and I’m embarrassed about how long and how many times did I have to explain it to myself, but eventually I got it.

As a broken young girl, with no longer any parents on my side, no boyfriend to stand up with me, no one to support me through anything, I got on a bus with the wages I had from my part time waitressing job, and I started again. I didn’t look back once, and I haven’t been back to my hometown either. There is nothing there for me anymore.

To be honest, I don’t remember a lot of the pregnancy, it’s all a blur. It was painful, sad, I was in a lot of depression, but somehow, I managed to get through it. Somehow, I managed to have Travis on my own, and been able to survive this long. When I think about how little we have, it’s really hard for me, but when I think about where we have come from, it’s really impressive. I have got through a lot; I have survived things that most people wouldn’t be able to cope with. So even if I hate my data entry job, I have to keep going at it, I need to keep on top of things because it’s only me. Me and Travis against the world.

As I type, I wonder what it would be like to really move on from my horrible past, to settle down, to finally set down roots, and have a proper life rather this constant limbo that exists at the moment. If I was going to do that anywhere, I would like to do it here. This is the place where I have been happiest, and Travis has as well. This is where I would like us to be because not only do we love the house, the school is amazing as well, it’s all just perfect. And that’s not even thinking about the handsome man next door...

Oh God, Marc. That man who keeps asking me to go on a date with him, the man that is blatantly far too good for me, so handsome that he could have absolutely everyone in the world if he wanted, but for some reason he wants me. I can’t fathom it, but I have to admit I do like the attention. I do like the way he looks at me even if I can’t meet his eyes and gives me that piercing gaze. I would actually love to go on a date with him, but I can’t let him in, I’m too scared to let anyone in my life again. Especially not if I have to move again soon.

But I do like thinking about it from time to time, imagining what it would be like to actually be with someone so tall, blonde, and handsome. Someone with warm brown eyes that actually invites other people in. I never realized that Ronnie was so unpleasant until I had some time away from him and I finally got over my feelings for him. I don’t know what I was thinking with that idiot, I can only blame my youth and naivety. I imagine that it’s part of my rebellion as well. I picked someone so wrong for me, so dreadful and not what my parents would want for me...that’s the only single thing they were right on of course. I would tell them