do my hair, my make-up, my earrings, anything. And I never have to see how homely I am."
Elizabeth didn't bother to offer a soothing denial. Denial was insult, for her aunt spoke the truth. She was homely and had always been so, burdened by a long, horsey face, a preponderance of teeth, and very little chin. Possessing a gangling body, she was all arms, legs, and elbows, the recipient of every genetic curse of the Rintoul family. Elizabeth had often thought that homeliness was the reason her aunt wore so much costume jewellery, as if it might somehow distract one's attention from the gross misfortunes of her face and body.
"You mustn't mind, Elizabeth," Francesca was saying gently. "She means well. She does mean well. You mustn't mind so awfully much."
Elizabeth felt her throat close. How well her aunt knew her. How completely she had always understood. "'Get Mr. Vinney a drink, darling... His glass is almost empty.'" Bitterly, she mimicked her mother's retiring voice. "I wanted to die. Even with the police. Even with Joy. She can't stop. She won't stop. It won't ever end."
"She wants your happiness, my dear. She sees it in marriage."
"Like her own, you mean?" The words tasted like acid.
Her aunt frowned. She put her brush on the chest of drawers, placing her comb neatly across its bristles. "Have I shown you the photographs Gowan gave to me?" she asked brightly, pulling open the top drawer. It squeaked and stuck. "Silly dear boy. He saw a magazine with those before-and-after pictures and decided we'd do a set of the house. Of each room as we renovate it. And then perhaps we'll display them all in the drawing room when everything's done. Or perhaps an historian might find them of interest. Or we could always use them to..." She struggled with the drawer, but the wood was swollen with the winter damp.
Elizabeth watched her wordlessly. It was always the way within the circle of the family: unanswered questions, secrets, and withdrawal. They were all conspirators whose collusion insisted upon ignoring the past so that it would go away. Her father, her mother, Uncle Geoffrey, and Granda. And now Aunt Francie. Her loyalties, too, were to the ties of blood.
There was no point in staying in the room any longer. Only one thing needed to be said between them. Elizabeth steadied herself to say it.
"Aunt Francie. Please."
Francesca looked up. She still held on to the drawer, still pulled at it fruitlessly, without realising that she was only making its inutility even more pronounced.
"I wanted you to know," Elizabeth said. "You need to know. I...I'm afraid I didn't manage things properly at all last night."
Francesca at last dropped her grip on the drawer. "In what way, my dear?"
"It's just that...she wasn't alone. She wasn't even in her room. So I didn't have a chance to talk to her at all, to give her your message."
"It doesn't matter, darling. You did your best, didn't you? And at any rate, I-"
"No! Please!"
Her aunt's voice-as always-was warm with compassion, with understanding how it felt to be barren of ability or talent or hope. In the face of this unconditional acceptance, Elizabeth felt the dry choking of fruitless tears. She couldn't bear to weep-in either sorrow or pain-so she turned and left the room.
"BLUIDY THING!"
Gowan Kilbride had just about reached his point of no return in his ability to survive nonstop aggravation. The situation in the library had been bad enough, but afterwards it had grown worse with the knowledge, neither admitted to nor denied by the girl herself, that Mary Agnes had allowed Robert Gabriel the very liberties that were forbidden to Gowan's own pleasure. And now, after all that, to be sent to the scullery by Mrs. Gerrard with directions to do something about the bloody boiler that hadn't worked properly in fifty years...It was beyond a person's ability to endure.
With a curse, he threw his spanner down onto the floor where it promptly chipped an old tile, bounced once, and slid under the fi ery coils of the infernal water heater.
"Damn! Damn! Damn!" Gowan fumed with rising anger.
He squatted on the floor, poked about with his arm, and immediately burned himself on the metal underside of the boiler.
"Jesus flippin' Christ!" he howled, throwing himself to one side and staring at the old mechanism as if it were a malevolent, living being. He kicked it viciously, kicked it again.
He thought about Robert Gabriel with Mary Agnes and kicked it a third